Wednesday, December 28, 2005

Happy Birthday Philbert

Today is Philbert's birthday..
So to my love I say Happy Birthday we may
not be together now but we will be together
soon. You would always be 25 to me..
Since 25 ka forever does that mean
I'm forever 21 since you are 4 years older?

Here's a poem that I found by E.E. Cummings.


More than anyone on the earth and I like you
better than everything in the sky -sunlight
and singing welcome your coming.

Although winter may be everywhere,
With such a silence and such a darkness
No one can quite begin to guess (except my life)
the true time of year- And if what calls itself a world
should have.

The luck to hear such singing or glimpse such
Sunlight as will leap higher than high
Through gayer than gayest someone's heart
at your nearness.
Everyone certainly would(myMost beautiful darling)
believe in nothing but love

Monday, December 26, 2005

Joshwa and I celebrated Christmas together
but it was weird because It felt sad and cold.
Joshwa opened all of the gifts his and mine.
He had fun opening the gifts he had fun
with the wrapping paper and forgot about
the gifts all together. Here I was watching
him and taking a video and I was happy
to see him in a good mood and smiling for
the camera.

I spent Christmas with my Lola and some tito's,
tita's and cousins but still something was
missing. While I was eating and partaking
of the feast that is called Noce Buena.
Silently I was praying to God please I never
want to go through this kind of Christmas again.
I know that I should count my blessings etc and etc.

I wanted to get into christmas "spirit"
but still It felt weird that I couldn't.
I cant help it I miss my family .so what is family
anyway right? Joshwa is family but what I meant
was parents, my sisters,my nephew and most especially
my husband.

It was so sad and I felt pathetic
but I cant help it. But it's okay I know
that everything happens for a reason.
God will reveal it in time.. Not my time
but in his perfect time.

So for all of you who felt happy and
jolly and all sorts of happy emotions
this holiday season I say good for you.

For some of you that felt like I did
well then I feel for you and I sincerely
know what you're going through.

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Our Christmas Letter

Only twelve more days till
Christmas!Time just seems
to fly by these days.Last year
we were just getting ready for
a trip to the United States.

The past year had lots of ups
and downs for all of us. As we
reach the end of 2005, we are
well, thankful and anticipating
some changes in our lives.
This year we will be spending
Christmas with my Lola and
Tito Rekz and his family because
my parents will be spending
the holidays with Grish, Brox, Nets & Geoff
in the United States.

Joshwa is thriving so well he moved to a new school in
July and has shown some remarkable improvement.
He also started taking KUMON last November and it
has also shown positive feedback. The essence of the
Kumon Method is the curriculum of distinct skill
levels broken down into smaller blocks.
The materials span the entire spectrum from
preschool right through to university level.
Preschool and early primary students flourish
with progress through the levels in small,
manageable increments.
He can now arrange the number board from
1-30 and he is now starting to utter words.

On another note please include Joshwa in your
prayers we recently found out that he has to go
through an operation . Something is wrong with
his tongue the initial diagnosis is Ankyloglossia a
condition in which the free movement of the tongue
is restricted due to abnormal attachment of lingual
frenulum towards the tip of the tongue. The schedule
for the surgery is not yet fixed but were looking at
January. I’m positive that with prayers everything
will go smoothly as God is in control.

As for me I went back to school and I’m working
towards finishing my education units this year
and hopefully taking up my teacher’s certification
in August and then getting my Special Education
units by next year hopefully in that order.
I’m still very much into scrapbooking some of my
works can be found at:

Philbert is still in the United States working and
hopefully we will be reunited soon.
We both miss him so much.

Time is getting short, so I need to close this letter
and email it before it before the Christmas rush.
I hope to hear from you soon and don’t forget to
send email to tell us how the year was so far for
you and your family. Happy Holidays from our
family to yours.

Philbert, Leira & Joshwa Pagaspas

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Dami na akong experiences as far as dealing
with disabilities are concerned. Not with Joshwa but
with other people. (Philbert's family included)
Kesyo kasalanan ko kung bakit sya ganyan kasi
di ko sya kinakausap to excuse lang na special child
to not help them. But i took it all in stride kasi di
naman totoo yun.. Of course it doesnt help that others
can be insensitive as well.
(Others meaning those that I have met only a few times )
Comments such as Autistic pala anak mo di halata..
Iba kasi itsura nila eh.. The worse question asked was
"May ginawa ka ba nung buntis ka?"a worst comment
ever said to me that Autistics shouldn't be allowed
to mix with other kids. Aww.. di naman yan sakit
di yan nakakahawa. Anyway its all good because
I know not everyone will understand because they
all think that it won't happen to them.

I hope that it doesn't kasi what I went through
with Joshwa is something that i would never
wish on someone else. Kasi sobrang masakit
sa isang nanay na makita mo anak mo delayed
sya or nahihirapan sa isang task na simple lang
for other kids. Yung magkasakit ang anak mo
tapos di mo malaman kung anong gagamutin
kasi di masabi sa yo kung ano ang masakit.

The finances are no joke either.. Talagang mabigat
sa bulsa bukas school doesnt have a vacation.
The only time off that we get from school are
the legal holidays. The best part about being
a mom to Joshwa is I really get to appreciate
the simple things that he can do. I can laugh
and relish the little victories that he can do...

Saturday, November 19, 2005

Harry Potter & the Goblet of Fire

I wanted to leave the office at 6 pm.
It just wasn't possible mom had to go somewhere
and she needed Joshwa's yaya to help her in
the kitchen. So I had to watch him while his yaya
was busy. Finally at 6:30PM when yaya was done
I gave Joshwa to her kissed my mom and
leave for SM. (Our meeting place)

We had a quick snack at the food court
and we went to Glorietta 1 to purchase
movie tickets. Walked around for a bit
looking for the perfect raffle prizes for
the scrapbook christmas party and
luckily I was able to find a cool
raffle prize.

Then headed for the cinema at around

After movie thoughts:

  • I loved the movie it was true to the book.
  • They're so grown up.. I can't believe it..
  • They chose really good parts this time.
  • I was disappointed with how they cast
Fleur Delacour & Cho Chang.

Friday, November 18, 2005


Was able to watch Constantine Maroulis
last night and I was blown away he was so good.

Constantine is so hot and sexy and he really
does have a good voice There is something
about him he has charisma and great stage

Music is about expression. Constantine
Maroulis knows how to not only express
emotion, but also provoke it. I admire his
ability to do whatever he feels right.

Tuesday, November 08, 2005


I'm now in Singapore currently enjoying a short
vacation.I want to move here ganda eh.
I can see us living here and starting a new life here.

Going to the US is also a good idea. It's just that
I'm starting to keep all options open.

Saturday, November 05, 2005

A Blast From the Past

I recently saw someone from my past.
I've always wondered whatever happened to that
person. Then from out of nowhere I have this
chance to see the person from a group photo
belonging to another friend's friendster account.
All thoughts of what could, should, would have
been have been erased. The if's and but's are now gone.
I wish that person a happy and quiet life.
One that is full of love, dreams and hopes.
The kind of life that I'm now starting to build for myself
and my son

Friday, October 28, 2005

Children are the living message we send to a time we will not see.-Unknown

Happy Halloween!!!!

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Im posting my 1st Semester Grades. Im so proud of
myself. Everything was truly worth it. 1 Semester
Down. 1 Semester to go. Then Special Education
here I come


Its now 1:50 AM im in an internet cafe.I'm soo sleepy..
Binabantayan ko ang bidding namin..Ngayon kasi ang
pag quote sa client namin online na ang system.
Imagine my shock when my boss said that I have to
finish the bidding.. Then wait for it to close.
I hope di ito madalas mangyayari.. Buti na lang din
open ang internet cafe na malapit sa amin ng 24 Hours.
Kaunting tiis na lang.. 1 Hour and 18 mins to go.. Tagal!!!!

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Thank You

Sa mga nag greet sa akin either via text, email, ym, phone calls.
Thank you so much. Di nyo lang kung paano nyo ako pinasaya.
I was already dreading this day kasi ang dami kong good
memories pag birthday ko. Nasanay lang ako na andyan si
Philbert pag birthday ko pero ngayon wala sya.Pero God is
good kasi many people remembered to greet me...
2 sets of friends organized a birthday celebration for me
Something that has never happened before. Siguro God
is just trying to tell me na make new memories instead
of being sad because Philbert isn't here. Really comforting..
I spent time with Joshwa today and heard him talk without
being prompted. That was the best gift that I have received
today to see him starting to talk and verbalize.
Again, thank you so much.. To my 2 sisters Grishan and Rhanesa
I miss you both so much and I miss Brox also.. Parang maski
ang daming wala dito to celebrate with me. I know that wherever
they are.. (buhay pa sila ha nasa ibang bansa lang) Im sure
they would have wanted me to be there with them to celebrate
with them..

Tuesday, October 18, 2005


Im back.. Tagal nasira nang internet namin sa office.
Sa wakas at natapos namin ang 1st semester. 12 Units
down and 12 Units to go then SPED here I come.

Hirap pala talaga maging estudyante pero I know
I can conquer the next semester.

Sa mga nagtatanong kung bakit walang update
sorry po medyo busy lang po ako. At nasira pa ang
internet namin sa office. By the way naglilipat din
pala kami ng office. Tapos pinaalis pa ni Mama
ang mga angels so dagdag ang work ko kasi
walang mautusan pag may kailangan ipagawa.
Sabi nga nila if you want something done you
have to do it yourself.

Saturday, September 24, 2005

My New Toy

My new
toy is
I love it,
I love it ,
I love it..

Friday, September 23, 2005

Pinoy Big Brother

I know baduy na kung baduy pero
I'm actually starting to like Pinoy Big Brother.
In a twisted way it triggers the chismossa in
me. Mahilig maki chissmiss sa buhay ng iba.
Syempre pa may gusto ako dun.. Si Sam
Gusto ko kasi cute sya.. Saka mukhang mabait
sya eh. I hope whoever wins will deserve
to win tipong walang tinatapakang tao
just like Ethan Zohn was in Survivor

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

My New Blog

I have a new template..
Thanks to my sister Grishan for the help.
I'm really dumb when it comes to HTML
and what have you.Nothing really
new in my life. Same old same old. I'm excited
because this semester is ending soon. I can't wait to
finish this school year to move on to the next phase
of my life. Either I take SPED or my masteral
degree in Guidance and Counselling. I figured that
while waiting for our migration plans to go through
might as well just use it to further my post graduate
degree. Who knows next I'll blog about is that I'm on my
way to my PhD Degree.

Saturday, September 10, 2005

I Won..

I won a contest sa blogsite si Ala Paredes
and since I never usually win anything.
I used it for my lay out and I took a photo

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

Things have been great lately. Im growing in
my faith as a Christian. A friend has been helping
me and discipling me. Im also involved sa church
as a Sunday school teacher di naman lagi once a
month lang. Dati assistant lang ako tapos I was asked
if i want to be an assistant team leader
(meaning i'll be handling a class na) pero im
not yet sure If i'll accept it. I'm happy to be
just helping and assisting the teacher with
the kids. I hope and pray that i can be more
involved sa christian church. I know in God's
time I will be..

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

New Developments

Last Saturday, I was able to attend my
orientation with E-World Staffing
Services. They have a great new
program that they are offering for
teachers maski wala ka pa talagang
experience.The most important
thing that I have to pass is the
American Teachers Board Exams
sa February. Best of all puro related
sa subject matter ang test no other
subjects kasi kung English ang ituturo
ko puro English subjects lang aaralin
ko kasi yun lang lalabas sa test.
May review classes din sila for
those taking the exam.
Para di bumagsak ang examinees nila
Sayang ang PhP 31,000 kung
babagsak lang di ba?

Tinanong ako kung saan ko gusto sabi
ko it doesn't matter kung saan ako
ma-assign. Pero if ako masusunod
gusto ko sa Florida or Utah. Florida
kasi Joshwa would really enjoy
Disney World, Epcot, NASA and
Etc. Saka he would like the
weather in Florida.Lamigin si Joshwa
di sya mag eenjoy sa cold weather.
Pero kung ako naman mag enjoy
ako sa UTAH kasi dun ang roots
ng scrapbooking sa United States.
Katulad ng Provo Craft dun sya
based sa UTAH. Hanggan sa pag
apply scrapbooking pa rin ang main
factor. (Hahaha)

I hope I can pass it eto na lang ticket
namin ni Joshwa makaalis dito.
If anyone knows of a better way please
suggest na and I would consider it.

If and when I pull this off dito na
magsisimula magbago ang buhay
namin ng anak ko.

Please include us in your prayers

Monday, August 01, 2005


Hon left a message at my tagboard.
Nagulat ako kasi di sya usually
ganyan his message really made my day.

I love you too Hon..We'll be together soon.

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

Joshwa and the Album

Yesterday Joshwa and I were looking
at our wedding photo album. Suddenly
I thought of testing him to see if knows
us. Sabi ko point mo si Mommy, point
naman sya sa photo.Point mo si Mama,
point naman sya sa photo,Point mo si
Papa, point naman sya sa photo,
Point mo si Daddy, point naman sya sa photo,.
Point mo si Tita Grish, point naman sya sa
photo,.Point mo si Kuya Brox, point naman
sya sa photo. Tapos eto na dumating
na kami kay Mother in Law sabi ko point mo
si Nanay di nya ma point gusto na nya ilipat
yung page. Sabi ko sige na point mo si Nanay
ayaw talaga. Sabi ko sige si Tatay na lang point
mo ayaw din. Di nya kilala In Laws ko..
Naku sasabihin na naman nila tinuturan ko
anak ko ng di maganda.Kakausapin ko
pa yung therapist ng anak ko tungkol dito,

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

Sa mga nagtatanong tungkol kay Joshwa at
sa bago nyang school okay naman sya.
Sulit naman yung bayad namin sa school.
Buti na lang at discounted ang rate nila
sa amin. He's now learning to be independent.

He's so cute (syempre anak ko) lalo na pag
minsan lumalabas na yung kapilyuhan nya
pag yaya nya ginawa cute pero tahimik lang
ako pero pag sa akin "JOSHWA STOP
THAT!!!" maririnig nya sa akin.

As for me school is okay but Im so swamped
with homework pero okay lang naman kasi
di pa naman sya masyadong mahirap. I found
out that our school might be offering Special
Education classes next year but if di naman sila
mag offer apply ako sa ibang school.. I kept thinking
I should have done this before.

Friday, July 15, 2005

Our 5th Wedding Anniversary

A Love Poem

You may not always treat me
like your princess
And at times you love your
PC more than me
I love you just the same

You may not be truly sweet
Not always generous with your gifts
Your love is the most important gift of all
Please know what it all means at heart
And how my spirit lifts.

The way you show me you love me
Can you see the love, the warmth
The THRILL that's in my eyes?

Our wedding day
The day we said I Do.
Was one of the best days of my life.
I could have been in heaven
and it wouldn't have mattered because
I was truly happy to have married
the love of my life.

Your presence seems to always calm me
You always seems to know me.

But best of all the dream
Continues to this day
Hon, we are soulmates
Distance may have separated us
but we are together in every way.

We have been through so much
We have been through struggles
I truly feel this from my heart
I wouldn't know what to do
Just how I'd live this life on earth
If life were without you.

You are so very wonderful
The truest, sweetest dear
And I'm happiest just smiling
and thinking of you on this special day

There is no love that's brighter
Or anything as warm
As the love we share together
In its quintessential form.

So on this day we mark our love
I'll shed some joyful tears
And say, with love that keeps on growing
I'll look forward to many more years.

Thursday, July 14, 2005

Waiting for Harry

Harry Potter is coming out
tomorrow I can't wait and
I'm soo excited. Im sure
the book won't disappoint
me. Never mind that the
book is pricey its worth
the wait. I'll tell you more
about it in my next few

Friday, July 08, 2005


Official na talaga nag start si Joshwa sa
new school nya kanina. Akala ko mahihirapan
ako kausapin yung teacher. Pero di naman
pala. Sabi ko kasi sa kanya I just want
what's best for Joshwa.I would really regret
it if di kami lumipat kasi ganda ng facilities
ng new school nya tapos one on one pa ang
student and teacher ratio.

Excited nga ako sa homework ni Joshwa
binili ko na agad yung nasa list nya.
Naghahanap na lang ako ng kiddie apron.
For his art class..

Speaking of Joshwa eto nga pala vocabulary

Jush = Josh (hirap sya sabihin ang letter O)
Baba = Ako po yun. Yun na tawag nya sa akin
Dadi= Daddy
Ati = Tawag nya sa nag aalaga sa kanya
Ano BA! = He says this pag naiinis sya
Hindi = Instead of No eto sinasabi nya
Babye= Bye bye nya with waving of hands

I truly celebrate this moments that he's
started to speak. Maingat na nga ako kasi
baka ano pa ma-pick nya na words.

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

A New School

Joshwa will be moving to a new school on
Monday. Nakita ko na sya ang ganda.
Problem ko na lang is how to tell the
old teacher na aalis na kami sa school nya.

Ganda talaga nung school.Very impressive
sya. The name of the school is Skill Camp

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

Joshwa Diaries-DAY 4- June 28

Joshwa was getting antsy and restless
gusto na maglakad pero di puede kasi
naka dextrose pa rin sya.

I didnt go to work because I wanted to
talk to the Doctor and to find out
kung ano ba talaga ang diagnosis nila

Upper Respiratory Track Infection
--Upper respiratory tract infection
involves inflammation of the respiratory
mucosa from the nose to the lower respiratory
tree, not including the alveoli. In addition
to malaise, it causes localized symptoms
that constitute several overlapping syndromes:
sore throat (pharyngitis), rhinorrhea (common cold),
facial fullness and pain (sinusitis),
and cough (bronchitis).

---Gastroenteritis is the irritation and inflammation
of the digestive tract.

Monday, June 27, 2005

Joshwa Diaries-DAY 3- June 27

Nakausap ko na yung agent namin sa
health card. Ayos na daw yung problem
sa card so expect ko na lang daw yung
liason officer nila para I could sign the
LOA tapos makakalipat na kami
ng room.

After 30 minute iba ang dumating
billing officer ng Makati Med
sinisingil kami ng downpayment na
PhP 13,000. I immediately called my
mom to call the agent. Then I also
called the agent.Buti naman at
na-sort out na sya.

Before I left for school dumating na
yung liason officer nung health
card I signed the form na..
Sa wakas makakalipat na rin kami ng room.

Sunday, June 26, 2005

Joshwa Diaries-DAY 2- June 26

Wala namang masyadong drama nangyari today
except that Joshwa was probably getting used
to the noise kaya natutulog na lang din sya.

Dumaan si Mama para kamustahin si Joshwa.

Nakausap ko si Philbert ako syempre ang
nasisi kung bakit nagkasakit anak nya. Syempre
wala na nga sya dito, di na kami dapat magsisihan
sa mga nangyari.

I just kept praying for the Lord to help us.
Alam ko naman na di nya kami papabayaan.

Saturday, June 25, 2005

Joshwa Diaries-DAY 1- June 25

I was still half asleep tapos kinakapa ko kung asan
si Joshwa kasi I wanted to hug him. Pag hawak
ko sa kanya napaso ako kasi ang init nya.
Talagang napaupo ako tapos tinawag ko
si Ate Nora (yaya nya) to tell her na may lagnat
si Joshwa.Sabi sa akin walang lagnat sabi ko
meron I had to wake up Bing for a second opinion.
Oo may lagnat daw si Joshwa.. I told Ate Nora
to look for the Calpol. While I was looking for a
shirt na pampalit ni Joshwa. All of a sudden
umupo si Joshwa and nagsuka. Then after nya
nahimasmasan nag suka na naman sya
at that point I called my dad and told him that
I would bring Joshwa to the hospital.

When we got to the hospital nasa 39 ang fever
nya. They told us to give him something to
drink uwi naman ako to get the last money
that I had. Sa taranta ko di ko pa nadala.
Bumili ako ng juice for Joshwa. As soon as binigay
sa kanya nagsuka sya uli.

Sabi sa amin admit na daw kasi nagsusuka baka
delikado. I said okay kasi may card naman
kami. Sabi sa akin sa admitting may kuarto
na daw. (Wow bilis thank you Lord!) Pero
paalis na ako tinawag ako ng taga admitting
sabi sa akin di daw kami puede ma-admit kasi
daw may problem sa card. Oh no.. apparently
di pa pala kami nagbayad.

So I decided mag ward na lang muna kami
kasi if Joshwa needs to be confined ward
lang ang ma-afford ko bayaran. Di bale na
lang yung ibang bagay basta unahin ko si

I was trying to get a hold of Philbert to
tell him na maysakit si Joshwa when
i finally tracked him down. Lasing po ang
asawa ko and parang di nya naintindihan kung
ano ang nangyayari.

We spent our 1st night there.. It was hard
kasi di makapahinga si Joshwa nang maayos
as soon as makakatulog sya may iiyak
na naman magigising naman si Joshwa.
Pero nung finally may peace and quiet
na which was at 10Pm matutulog na si Joshwa
nanonood na lang nang tv para antukin sya.
Pinatay ang tv, syempre iyak naman ang anak ko
buong gabi halos alternating between crying,
whinning and shouting sya. The others complained
the next day.Luckily there were some who
were quick to remind those who were complaining
na special child si Joshwa.

Friday, June 24, 2005

Share ko lang natuwa ako kay Joshwa kahapon
pumunta ako sa school nya para makita ko
ang performance nya sa school.

Naaliw ako when he started putting words
together.. CNN, TRUE, RUE, STAY, IBC,
CNN, RP, CATV, RJTV. Napapaghalata
talaga kung ano ang pinapanood nya.
Mahilig kasi sya sa Channel Guide.

Wala lang.. naaliw lang ako kasi very
sharp pala talaga ang memory nya..

Thursday, June 23, 2005

More About School..

Di ko nga pala nasabi yung details ng schooling ko.
Im currently taking up Certificate in Education sa
Makati University. Initially inisip ko baduy naman
bakit dun pa pero naisip ko. If I need it, I really
need it so di ako puedeng mamili ng school and the
tuition ain't bad either. PhP 1,600 per semester
lahat na yun.

Tapos I discovered na lahat pala ng magiging
teachers ko may PHD. Not bad naman pala.

Ngayon ang hassle na lang sa akin ang
mag commute ng malayo medyo malayo kasi
ang school kung saan ako nakatira pero
kaunting tiis na lang. 2 Semesters lang naman
ako dun.

Then next year I'll be moving to another
school sa Philippine Normal University to
take up my specialization. (feeling ko mag
doctor ako) . Sabi sa akin I need to get at
least 18 Units ng Education Units kaya eto
na nga ginagawa ko na.

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Pasukan Na..

Start na ng classes namin nung Monday.
It felt weird to be called by your real name.
Okay naman pala sya, iniisip ko kasi baka
ma-out of place ako. Pero nung nag start
na di na rin pala ako out of place. Kasi
lahat naman kami andun para mag-aral
at para matuto. Tapos puro research rin
gagawin. Medyo natuwa ako kasi ganun
din ako nung college puro research
ang ginagawa.

Mabait naman yung mga classmates ko.
Mayroon na rin akong naging kaibigan
although sa isang subject ko lang sya
classmate nalaman ko na malapit lang
sya sa akin. Kaya tuwing pag uwi sabay
na lang kami.

Bigla ko ga naisip sana pala noon ko
pa ginawa ito.Pero madaming bagay
sa buhay ko ang ay laging karugtong na
sana noon ko pa ginawa. Wala na akong
magagawa dun eh tapos na yun. Kahit
ano pang gawin ko di ko na mababalik.
Puede ko na lang gawin pag butihan ko
yung ngayon para maging maganda ang

Sunday, June 19, 2005

Happy Fathers Day!

Happy Fathers Day Philbert

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I know sometimes Im guilty of saying that
you are not a good husband. I can never say
that you were not a good father. I couldn't
have asked for a better father for Joshwa
Joshwa is so lucky to have a dad like you.
When I couldn't get up to give him his bottle
in the middle of the night you did it without
any complaints. You gave him his daily bath
and never said a word of protest.

You always took time out to play with him
and bring him a toy whenever you can.
Joshwa loves you so much and he misses
you so much. Sometimes he looks
for you and it hurts to see him to always
keep saying Daddy and you're not here
to hear that.Im sorry that I'm always
on your case as to when we can join you
I just miss you much and we love you
so much.

Saturday, June 18, 2005

Officially A Student

Naka enroll na ako sa wakas.. Nakahanap na ako
ng school na tatanggap sa akin. This may
pave the way for a fresh new start for Joshwa
and me.

Medyo biglaan nga ang pagka enroll
ko kasi tumawag lang ako para
magtanong kung kailan puede mag
enroll for Second Semester. Sabi sa akin
punta ka na ngayon puede ka pa humabol
for 1st Semester. Kaya ayun nagpunta ako
nag exam tapos nagfill out ng forms nagpa
assess the next day nakapag pa enroll na ako

Thursday, June 16, 2005

Its our 6th Year Anniversary on Sunday.
Then I heard our song on the radio.
Baduy but we really like this song..
But this is not really like a typical
love song and it actually describes what
I feel at the moment.

Walking After You
by Foo Fighters

Tonight I'm tangled in my
blanket of clouds
Dreaming aloud
Things just won't do
without you, matter of fact
I'm on your back, I'm on your back,
I'm on your back

If you walk out on me,
I'm walking after you
If you walk out on me,
I'm walking after you
If you'd accept surrender,
give up some more
Weren't you adored

I cannot be without you,
matter of fact
Ooh I'm on your back
I'm on your back
Ooh I'm on your back
If you walk out on me,
I'm walking after you
If you walk out on me,
I'm walking after you
Another heart is cracked in two,
I'm on your back Ooh
I cannot be without you, matter of fact

Ooh I'm on your back
If you walk out on me,
I'm walking after you
If you walk out on me,
I'm walking after you
If you walk out on me,
I'm walking after you
Another heart is cracked in two,
I'm on your back Ooh

Monday, May 23, 2005

I had a good week no drama of any sort
happening in my life. Except that some of
my plans are again on hold. I cant go back to
school just yet although I want to but something
tells me that this isn't the right time.

Im trying to fix Joshwa's transfer to a new school
I just found out that PGH has a SPED School and
that's where I want to move Joshwa.
Kasi I know magagaling ang hahawak na doctors
and specialists sa kanya. So tomorrow aga kami
punta around 6am sana magising ako para
maaga.I've heard horror stories kung gaano
kahaba ang pila sa Out Patient Department nila.

Going to PGH and passing through Ward 9
the primary beneficiary of Give a Life
was a HUGE HUGE reality check for me
kasi I used to look at other kids say to myself
if only Joshwa wasn't like this he would be like
that. Pero nung pumunta ako dun parang sinasabi
sa akin na would you rather that Joshwa be able
to be" normal" and yet be confined here.

I heard a sermon that really struck me about
always wanting what we have and always looking
through other people's fences. Thats something that
I want to change. Joshwa is what he is and
I've learned to accept that kaya lang I guess
those are the moments of weakness for me.

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Kuento Kuwento

I read somewhere na okay na browser ang firefox
Syempre hanap naman ako sa Limewire
para mag download. Tapos nung nakita na
gawa sya ng Mozilla. Meron pala ako nun.
Tanga ko talaga.. Saka its just similar to the
Netscape Navigator.

I've been okay lately.The depression is
under control siguro kasi I've been going
to church and I've been attending my
cell group meetings. Di ko alam kung ano
ang connection nun pero malaki talaga
naitulong sa akin.

On another note Mama and Papa will be
going to the US in December. Iwan muna
kami ni Joshwa. Although nalungkot ako
naintindihan ko rin naman kung bakit.
I plan to go on a vacation with Josh iniisip ko
pa kung saan. Kung sa Boracay or Sa Dipolog
and Dumaguete. Kung may pera ako we
just might do both. Either way we will really
go I dont want to stay here na wala sila.
Neither do I want to spend the holidays with
my In Law's. If worse comes to worse at di talaga
makaalis check in na lang kami sa hotel ni Joshwa.

I've seen In Good Company last night
for some reason di ako masaya dun sa
movie. Ewan ko ba di pa rin ako maka get over
na di lahat ng movie eh magkakatuluyan.
(sorry kung spoiler)

Sunday, May 08, 2005

Someone sent this to me i think this is
worth reading

Reflections of a Mom...
Author: Anonymous

I gave you life, but cannot live it for you.
I can teach you things,
but I cannot make you learn.
I can give you directions,
but I cannot be there to lead you.
I can allow you freedom
, but I cannot account for it.
I can share my faith with you,
but I cannot make you believe.
I can teach you right from wrong,
but I cannot always decide for you.

I can buy you beautiful clothes,
but I cannot make you beautiful inside.
I can offer you advice,
but I cannot accept it for you.
I can give you love,
but I cannot force it upon you.
I can teach you to share,
but I cannot make you unselfish.
I can teach you respect,
but I cannot force you to show honor.
I can advise you about friends,
but cannot choose them for you.
I can advise you about sex,
but I cannot keep you pure.
I can tell you the facts of life,
but I can't build your reputation.
I can tell you about alcohol,
but I can't say "no" for you.
I can warn you about drugs,
but I can't prevent you from using them.

I can tell you about lofty goals,
but I can't achieve them for you.
I can teach you about kindness,
but I can't force you to be gracious.
I can warn you about sins,
but I cannot make you moral.
I can love you as a child,
but I cannot place you in God's family.
I can pray for you,
but I cannot make you walk with God.
I can teach you about Jesus,
but I cannot make Jesus your Lord.
I can tell you how to live,
but I cannot give you eternal life.

Happy Mother's Day to Everyone maski
yung walang anak kasi I truly believe that
Women are mothers one way or the other.

Saturday, May 07, 2005

Someone asked me this questions..
I figured i'd post this on my blog
so that you know how I really am and
how I'm coping. To those of you who
will tell me get over it and post about
something else this is my blog my online
journal my personal space. (enough said)

How are you doing without Philbert?

When people usually ask me that question
I always have the "safe" answer, I tell them
I'm okay.. I'm fine. I'll tell you the truth I'm
lonely, alone,miserable and my depression is
creeping up on me. I know I shouldnt be but
I cant help it. He's , soulmate and my bestfriend
and now he's not here I feel so alone.

How's Joshwa?
Joshwa is okay.We will try medication
soon as soon I can afford it I will try it.
Unfortunately, he doesnt ask for his dad
anymore usually when someone is at the door
he would shout and smile and say Didi!!
(short for daddy) but now its not
there anymore.

How in the world are you coping
when you're by yourself?

Im failing miserably.. I mean in all honesty
I'm not doing great at all things have been
going so bad with me and Im having problems
financially sometimes my dad would say
that he made a mistake nung pinauwi nya
pa ako dito.Which I also think so too..
But kung di naman ko umuwi paano naman
si Joshwa I wouldn't want to leave him here.
What kind would a mother would I be If
I just didnt go back for him. I cant judge
other moms who could do that but I can't.
I can never live with myself kung di na ako
bumalik for him.

Are you ok?
Im not i miss him so much
as in everyday i think about him and I worry
about him kung okay ba sya or ano na ba
nangyayari sa kanya. Bago ako umuwi he asked
me to stay with him kasi di daw nya kaya na wala
ako pero like what I said I had to make that very
difficult decision.I know the bible would said
unahin ko husband ko pero I felt na mas
kailangan naman ako ni Joshwa.
Philbert needs me too but Joshwa needed
me more. Sometimes I get mad that people
would say buti pa si Philbert asa abroad na
I just smile and not say anything at them
pero sa totoo lang sometimes I cant take it
anymore gusto ko na lang umuwi sya.
I also hate the way his mom flaunts it
na she's so sad na andun na si Philbert
I know she's proud. Pero iniisip ko bakit
ako lang malungkot na wala sya bakit sila
kunwari lang malungkot pero masaya sila
na malayo sya kasi iniisip nila makakatulong
na kami financially sa kanila.
In my mothers in laws case totoo ito I
know her too well. I know that if i tell him
to go home he will but I dont want him to
resent me na pinauwi ko sya dito.
Ano ba meron dito sa Philippines
Palubog na eh.

What have you been up to?

Im still working for my dad, trying to figure
out the bio-medical intervention aspect for
Joshwa and still scrapbooking.
Scrapbooking is really my passion it
was a great outlet for me. It brought out
something in me that I never really knew I had.

How is Philbert doing?

Philbert is great,, He found a job that he wanted
He is now working for a Auto Supply Parts
Company as a computer technician.
He recently bought a car and enjoys the American Life.

Are you able to join him soon....or do you want to?

Im not sure about joining him soon.
Im going to try my best to apply for a
visa in September. If ma deny okay lang at
least I tried if ma approve that would be really
great. I want to see him and be with him.
Im ready na to let go of my life and everything
here makasama ko lang sya.
I dont know how long I can take to be
apart from him. This has been so hard for me.

Nobody has really asked me that kung okay
lang ba or kung how am I coping.
They all ask me kung kumusta na si Philbert
pero no one really asked kung kumusta na ako.
I know that's a selfish question or statement.
Pero Im really going through a tough time right now.

Please pray for me that i can get through this..
We usually fight and argue a lot and I suddenly
miss that.

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Im excited about the next approach to
Joshwa's therapy. We're going to do the
Bio-Medical Approach.

I found 2 other parents and we will be doing
chelation together.

Here are some bits and pieces of my research.

What is Chelation?Chelation
(pronounced key-LAY-shun) is a term
derived from the Greek chele, meaning "claw."
A chelation agent is a chemical agent that, like a
claw, grabs and chemically bonds with metals or
other minerals and toxins. Simply put, chelation
is the process in which chemicals bind with minerals.
While chelation is a naturally occurring biological
process (hemoglobin binds with iron to provide
oxygen to tissues), synthesized chelation agents
were first developed during World War II as a
way to clear toxic metals from the body.

Chemists discovered they could create a
heterocycling ring of molecules which surround
or "sequester" mineral molecules and carry them
from the body through normal elimination.

This process of chelation actually removes
unwanted metals from the bloodstream.
In fact, chelation therapy is the only way
to treat lead poisoning. But lead is not the
only metal cleansed from the body through
chelation. A chelation agent will also bind with
most metals, mineral deposits, calcium-based
plaques and other chemical toxins.

I believe that my son has been mercury
poisoned. Syempre iisipin nyo naghahanap
lang ako ng sisisihin. According to research
a mother who has Amalgam filling can
pass on the mercury to her unborn child.
Of course you will think its just a
coincidence but in our egroup of
80 parents all of the mothers have
amalgam fillings.

Plus the fact that the child will have
vaccinations will of course bring more
mercury to the child's body. The nail
that will seal the coffin is the MMR
because it weakens the immune system.

Since the figures of kids afflicted with Autism
were escalating. There was a research that
was done here in Tagum, Davao City.
They went to a hospital near Compostella
Valley near the mining site because there
were large amounts of mercury there.
They studied the cord and meconium
of newborns.. There was one batch that
had no mercury in the cord but it was
found in the meconium. But there
was another batch that had mercury on the
cord but not on the meconium. Which
means that the child could not
excrete the mercury it was deposited
on the brain.

This findings are all scientific..
I dont mean to scare anyone neither
do I want to look for an excuse.
I just refuse to accept the fact that
this is it for Joshwa he deserves a
fighting chance. I owe it to my child
to try everything so that I could help
him. If chelation is not the answer
then I'll move on to the next one.

I thank God that he sent me angels
that will go through the journey with me.

Sunday, April 17, 2005

Saturday, April 16, 2005

Okay na ako

I decided to shift my focus on to other
things. As my dear friend once told me
you can't be depressed all the time.

I know I really need to learn how
to refocus my attention and my
energy. I can't waste my time whinning
and crying about things that I can't control.

I miss Philbert I really do.
But there's nothing I can't do but wait.
We made that choice together for him
to stay behind and try to see if It
will work out.

Nakakapagod na pala maging malungkot.
Nakakapagod maging takot sa hinaharap
Nakakapagod pag madaming dinadala.

So I will try to be more proactive.
Im going back to school to get some
units. I volunteered to take on
two new projects and on top of that
A friend and I decided to form a small
business. Hopefully this will work out
if it doesn't then we will learn from
our mistakes and move on.

That's what life is all about.
Take what you can and learn from it
and if you can't then leave it behind
because someone might use it and in
life we have to learn to travel light.

Thursday, April 14, 2005

The Wedding Date

I decided to leave work early to watch a movie
alone and I chose to watch The Wedding Date.
Thanks to Leah for calling my attention..It
was not my intention to post something
without crediting those who wrote it.

The Wedding Date: A Movie Review

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This movie was a fairly typical romantic comedy,
though at times it packed some great plot punches.
The acting wasn't superb. Dermot Mulroney's
character and other supporting actors characters
were, at times, overdone. The cast's saving Grace
was Debra Messing, who played her character
exceedingly well. Direction could've been done by
anyone. Don't get me wrong-- It wasn't bad.
It's just okay.

The visuals were good. I'm a sucker for English
scenery, and what can I say? If you took a video
recorder out into the middle of England, its so

The thing about this movie is, if you like often
predictable romantic comedies, and those are the
types of movies that leave you warm and fuzzy
when you get up from your seat, then it's a
worthwhile movie. If you're a cynic who wants to
see "true love" and "true life" represented, sorry--
not happening. Overall, I enjoyed the movie
and felt it was entertaining.

Johnny Depp stand aside, Brad Pitt move away...
Dermont is here. Not only was the leading man in
this film amazing(along with a few other cast
members), but the story is one that leaves
you coming out of the theater in a happy mood
and wanting to go see it again. It combines the
perfect amount of humour, passion/love, and
"happiness." This movie is one that you
definitely should go and see!

Sunday, April 10, 2005

Lately, Im just feeling so down
as in super. Miss ko na talaga asawa ko.
Maybe i'm not meant for this long
distance thing. May mga araw na
ayoko na talaga di ko na kaya.
Like this past few days i feel myself
in a total slump. I couldnt even
focus my energy on anything else.
I keep asking myself up to when
ba itong dusa na ito? I couldn't function
properly. I know nahihirapan din sya
pero di na lang nya sinasabi sa akin.
He always tells me na he's doing good.
I guess I should be happy na okay sya
pero bakit ako hindi?

I know at the back of my mind this
is for the greater good. Pero I miss the
hugs, the laughs, the fights and just
being near him. I miss my best friend.
Till I see him again I dont know if
I'll ever be the same again.

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

I used to hate it na may mga tao na laging sinasabi
na in the States ganito at ganyan at dito ganito
pa rin.Then nung bumalik ako dito ganito na rin
ako. Pero since concious nga ako sa ganyan.
I try na hindi gawin. Baka kasi mali na naman
ang dating sa iba eh. Ibang impression ang makuha

Speaking of impressions.. I know I wrote a letter
asking for help para kay Joshwa. Pinadalhan ko yung
Autism Society of the Philippines ng Letter.
You know what I received nothing but ridicule
behind my back. Aba eh imbes na tulungan ako eh
wala lang na chismiss pa ako. Tipong ano pa daw
ba nirereklamo ko kaya ko naman magbayad.
I have yet to talk to them but I will.. I really will..

Wala naiinis lang ako. Im just feeling so low lately
miss ko na kasi si Philbert eh. Its been too long since
I've seen him..

Monday, April 04, 2005

Orange Chicken (Panda Express)

I totally love this.. Once lang ako nakatikim
pero super sarap talaga nya..

Panda Express Orange Chicken

· 2 pounds boneless chicken pieces
· 1 egg
· 1 1/2 teaspoon salt
· White pepper
· Oil
· 1/2 cup plus 1 tbsp cornstarch
· 1/4 cup flour
· 1 tablespoon minced ginger root
· 1 teaspoon minced garlic
· 1 dash crushed hot red chilies
· 1/4 cup chopped green onions
· 1 tablespoon rice wine
· 1/4 cup water
· 1 teaspoon sesame oil

Orange Sauce for Stir Fry

2 teaspoons minced zest
1/4 cup juice from 1 large orange
1/2 teaspoon granulated sugar
2 tablespoons chicken stock
1 tablespoon light soy sauce

Cut chicken pieces in 2-inch squares and place in
large bowl. Stir in egg, salt, pepper, and
1 tablespoon oil and mix well.

Stir cornstarch and flour together.
Add chicken pieces, stirring to coat.
Heat oil for deep-frying in wok or
deep-fryer to 375 degrees F.

Add chicken pieces, a small batch at time,
and fry 3 to 4 minutes or until golden and crisp.
(Do not overcook or chicken will be tough.)
Remove chicken from oil with slotted spoon
and drain on paper towels. Set aside.

Clean wok and heat 15 seconds over high heat.
Add 1 tablespoon oil. Add ginger and garlic and
stir-fry until fragrant. Add and stir-fry crushed
chiles and green onions.

Add rice wine and stir 3 seconds.
Add Orange Sauce and bring to boil.
Add cooked chicken, stirring until well mixed.
Stir water into remaining 1 tablespoon cornstarch
until smooth. Add to chicken and heat until sauce is thick.
Stir in 1 teaspoon sesame oil.

Sunday, April 03, 2005

No Cellphone.. Not Good

Initially akala ko I could live without a cellphone.
Inisip ko kasi Im getting too attached to it tipong
di na ako mabuhay ng wala sya. Kaya nung nagka
problem cell phone ko dumating sa point
na kailangan ko sya palitan nagkataon wala pa sya
sa budget ko.. I simply welcomed the idea na di
muna mag cell phone.

It was okay for the first few months.
Then I started having problems. I couldnt go out
with my friends without finding out where we would
meet. Di sila makalipat ng lugar nang wala ako.
Which is sometimes nakakahiya kasi minsan gutom
na sila kailangan pa nila talaga ako hintayin
before magdecide kung saan talaga kakain.

Some friends are telling me na they texted me
asking for directions and they thought na snub
ako kasi di ako sumasagot.

This is the final blow na. My bestfriend got married
and I wasnt there. She was texting me asking for
my address and I didnt respond akala nya nagalit
ako kasi ayoko dun sa pinakasalan nya.

Im going to get a cellphone soon. So I could be
connected again and prevent these kinds of hassles.

I also thought that cell phone is just luho pero
I realized need na pala ito.

Monday, March 14, 2005

I really love this song.. Luma na sya
pero it still has the same effect on me.
Miss ko na talaga si Philbert.

Angel of Mine
by Monica

When I first saw you, I already knew
There was something inside of you
Something I thought that I would never find
Angel of mine
I look at you, lookin' at me
Now I know why they say, the best things are free
I'm gonna love you boy, you are so fine
Angel of mine
How you changed my world you'll never know
I'm different now, you helped me grow


You came into my life, sent straight from above
When I lost all hope, you showed me love
I'm checkin' for you boy, you're right on time
Angel of mine
Nothing means more to me than what we share
No one in this whole world could ever compare
Last night, the way you moved is still on my mind
Angel of Mine
What you mean to me you'll never know
Deep inside, I need to show

You came into my life sent straight
from above (sent from above)
When I lost all hope, you showed me love
(boy you showed me love)
I'm checkin' for you, boy you're
right on time (right on time)
Angel of mine (angel of mine)
I never knew I could feel each moment
As if they were new
Every breath that I take, the love that we make
I only share it with you, you, you, you, you
When I first saw you I already knew
There was something inside of you
Something I thought that I would never find
Angel of Mine

You came into my life sent straight
from above (came in to my life, yeah)
When I lost all hope you showed me love
(boy you showed me love, uh huh)
I'm checkin' for you, boy you're right
on time (but boy your right on time)
Angel of mine (angel of mine, oh mine)
How you changed my world you'll never know
I'm different now you helped me grow
I look at you, looking at me
Now I know why they say, the best things are free
I'm checkin' for you, boy you're right on time
Angel of mine

Sunday, March 13, 2005

Just a short note..Just wanted to let everyone
know that may work na si Philbert.
God is indeed good. I hope that this works
out na.Sana rin ma petition na sya.
Please continue to pray for us..

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

Some news

Ibabalik na namin si Andie sa family ng Mama nya.
I know nakakagulat kasi mahal namin sya and we
want her to be with us. So what's the problem?

Problema kasi is yung nanay nya although she
signed the waiver na. She has to be here naman
to testify in court that she gave Andie to us
out of her own free will. She's not willing to appear
in court . Aside from the fact that she's
out of the country ayaw daw nya mag appear in court.

If we declare her as abandoned naman we have to
wait 5 years para madeclare that the mom did
abandon her. Pero if magpakita nanay nya within
the 5 year waiting period.All that waiting will
amount to nothing.

I cant wait that long not at Joshwa's expense.
We need to migrate so that Joshwa will have
the best intervention that he cannot have
here. So maski masakit man sa loob ko kasi
napamahal na talaga sya sa akin. I have to
do it habang maaga pa. I dont want to wait
til its super painful for me to let her go.

Saka when she talked to my dad sabi nya
iiwan lang daw nya sa akin kukunin din daw.
Iyun pa isang kinakainis ko kasi ang gulo nya
iba iba sinasabi. So ang lagay nun gagawin
nya akong day care center. I hope that
Andie will grow up to be a smart woman.
I hope that she will be raised in the way
that I want to but I couldn't. Be loved like
the way I will always love her and hold
her in my heart.

Sunday, February 27, 2005

A Call For Help

Over the past few days I've been emailing virtually
all the Autism Organizations that I could find.
Joshwa is regressing, despite all the intervention
which is not much considering that I could not
really afford the great ones (great meaning
expensive and great at the same time) Tapos
tinanggihan na kami ng BMAC. Apparently
they think that we can afford the therapy
pero kunwari lang nagpapanggap kaming
walang pera para makatipid. Which doesn't
make any sense kasi kung may money kami
di ko na titipirin yung therapy na yan.

I've emailed 50 groups all over the world.
I know isipin mo kapal naman nitong
babaeng ito virtually begging na talaga.
At this point it doesnt matter what others
think as long as matulungan ko ang anak ko.

Here's my email:
My name is Leira Pagaspas and
Im from the Philippines
I need your help I have a son who
was diagnosed with Autism.
I want to bring him there to your country
but I dont have the finances to do so right now

I was hoping to ask your organization so
that I could bring him there for programs.
If you cant help me can you refer me to
someone who can help me to bring him
there to help him.

Im willing to do anything and try anything
and beg if I have to. Just as long as I know
that my son will have a fighting chance.
Because here in the Philippines if you dont have the
money you cant do anything.
I know that with your support he will have the
best intervention that you can give him.
hope you can help my son.

Kung may kakilala kayo na puedeng makatulong
please paki email na lang ako sa

God Bless!!

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

Andie Update

Great News!!! Di na babawiin si Andie.
Her bio mom and I had a long discussion
and we settled our issues and bottomline
is we both want what is beth for Andie
what was great was she signed the
waiver for the adoption.

Sa totoo lang talagang I lifted it all
up to God and I told him that
if she's not meant to be with us then
I humbluy accept his will and this
good news came. I am so ecstatic.

God is goood!!!!!!!!!

A Sad Day

I just wanted to tell you guys that Andie will be
going back to her biological mom. Im hurt
and sad at the same time but if its not meant
to be then its not meant to be.

This is probably for the best. i prayed for this
I asked God to give me a sign to tell me
kung para sa amin ba sya o hindi and
God gave me an answer not exactly what I
wanted to hear but this is still God's answer.

Please pray I may be hurt and mourning
because I feel like I lost a child.But
this is something that will not ruin
my spirit
will destroy me

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

My True Bestfriend

I was struck by what Hanagirl said that her
bestfriend is her Hana. Napaiisip ako talaga.

Oo nga pala kung may bestfriend pala na
ako matuturing si Philbert nga pala yun.
Buti na lang he is not reading my blog.
Kasi baka mag tampo sya.

I realized na wala namang nakakakilala
sa akin ng husto kung di sya lang eh.
It's even so freaky na tipong iniisip ko
palang ay alam na nya.

He knows what I look like in the morning
and before I go to sleep. He has endured
my singing voice and He has seen me
when I was sick and seen the worse
that I've ever looked. A day after
giving birth comes to mind.

Yes I may have close friends, girl friends
and really great friends who can give the
greatest of advise but at the end
of the day he really is the one that
I would turn to next to God of course.

We may have had our fights, disagreements
and moments na tipong ayoko na sya
makita pero sa kanya din naman ako
uli tumatakbo.

I love you Hon! I hope you come home
soon. I miss you so much!

Wednesday, February 16, 2005


My mom once asked me may bestfriend ka ba.
I said that wala. Kasi i have different sets of
friends and iba iba yung level of friendship namin.

Here's a bit of trivia about my dear friends
in no particular order.

Just thinking about it makes me smile.
I think would like to pay tribute to them somehow.

1.) Pinky- My confidant, my dear friend she
always takes time out to talk to me. To call
me and to find out how I am. Im so amazed
at how she balances and manages her time.
She's not just a friend I consider
her as my soul sister.

2.) Jem- She really made me realize na its not
easy to be SAHM ( Stay At Home Mom). Sa
mga kuento lang nya about how it is to stay
at home it gave new meaning to the word
" Ilaw ng Tahanan"

3.) Jovie- She made me realize that your
husband should be your number one
priority. Di dapat kids uunahin coz in the
end the kids will fly away in the end
kayo na lang dalawa ang maiiwan. Kung
may tanging ina sya po ang tanging

4.) Mia- She gives me good advice
specially in terms of discipline and
raising my daughter. She's so fun
to be with and a good mom at that.
She gave up a good career and stayed
home to raise her kids.

5.) Bet- A great mom. She reminds me that
it is possible to be a Work At Home Mom. She
has a lot valuable experience that I have
learned from.

5.) My Scrapbook Group- How I love
this girls kasi we really grew together
in terms of our scrapbook development.
I always look forward to our monthly
meetings. Kasi talagang masaya sya
tipong pag naka attend ka na once you look
forward to the next one.

6) N@W Family - I truly love this
group. There may have been ups
and downs but I still appreciate the
help, the support and the learning.

7.) Lali- This girl is like my sister
she's my cousin pero feeling ko mas
ate pa sya kaysa sa akin. Always
keeps me in line and tells me what to do.

Monday, February 14, 2005


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Sunday, February 06, 2005

I've been taggedI got tagged by MICKEE
so here's my take

Random 10:
1. Im A Little Bit-- By MYMP
2. Wag na Wag Mong Sasabihin--
4. More & More -- GARY V
5. Colourblind-- DARIUS DANESH
6. Dreamlover-- MARIAH CAREY
7. You'll Always Be My Baby-- MARIAH CAREY
8. Runaway-- THE CORRS
9. Twin Hearts-- SARAH GERONIMO
10. Sukob Na--17:28

1. What is the total amount of music files on your computer?
Madami eh. I cant even count kung gaano na sya kadami.

2. The last CD you bought is.. I just download the
song that I like.

3. What is the last song you listened to before this message?
I cant remember na
4. Write down five songs you listen to a lot
or mean a lot to you:

a. I'm A Little Bit
b. Walking After You( theme song namin baduy ba? )
c. Boys Dont Cry.. (fave song ng asawa ko)
d. Sukob Na (favorite song ko)
e. Free (favorite song ko rin)

5. Who are you gonna pass this stick to?
Cher, Coo of Sy & Son and Kuya Pepe. I'd like
to read about their perspective on this matter.

Thursday, February 03, 2005

Happy Birthday Andie!

I initially wrote this for Andie's
5th Birthday Last January 26.

Happy Birthday my sweet little girl..
We've been through a lot this last
six months.. It was rough, tough,
bitter,sweet and joyful all at the same

I read somewhere that a mother once
said to her daughter. You may not have
grown from my belly. But you grew
from my heart. That's exactly how I
feel about you.

I regret not being there when you were
born. Not rocking you to sleep. Not
watching take your first step or see
you blow your 1st candle.

But that's all in the past because I know
that we can face the future together.
My promise to you is that I will try my
best to find a way to fix your papers
so that you can really be ours. We will
never migrate without you. You our
part of our family and no one can
tell us otherwise.

Every day is exciting as I continue to watch
you grow. I want you to always know
that in good and bad times.
I will love you and that no matter
what you do or how you think or
what you say you can depend on
my support, guidance friendship and
I love you every minute of everyday
I love being your mother. I will always
be your mom no matter what and nothing
can ever change that.

Happy Birthday Andie!

We love you so much..

Daddy, Mom & Joshwa

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

The Verdict

Philbert is not going home just yet.
(Much to my disappointment)
Philbert wants to stay til May kung wala pa
talagang mangyari saka na daw sya uuwi. I was
really praying and asking God to help him.
Just when I was about to to lose hope and I
told him to go home na lang.
Tumawag daw yung agency nya may
interview daw sya sa Thursday.
I hope this is it. If di naman maybe he
will get "the break" that he needs in due time
and in God's time.

Please pray for us because this is a very difficult
time for me. But with your prayers and your
support I know I can do it and I know that this
to shall pass.

Monday, January 31, 2005


My Dilemma is should Philbert go home
or stay in the US. Ang hirap magdecide
kung uuwi ba sya o hindi. Kasi he left it
up to me. Sabi nya I tell him when I want
him to come home na. I want him to
come home.
I made a list of the PRO's and CON's .

Here are the PRO's if he stays there

  • We could have a better future
  • We could afford to send our kids to a good school
  • There is a chance that we could go there to be with him

Here are the CONS if he stays there:

  • The kids could grow up without a father
  • There is a chance that It might take awhile before the kids can see him again
  • The family won't be together for a long time.
  • It might take awhile for everything to be finished here
Here are the PRO's if he goes home:

  • We can be together as a family
  • My kids will be so happy to see him and I will be too.

Here are the Cons naman if he goes home:

  • He will have to look for another job since he quit his job here
  • Everything will think that I'm stupid coz I asked him to go home.
  • We'll be struggling again

Sunday, January 30, 2005

Lucy Torres

I read about the Lucy Torres rumor
and to me that's all that it is a rumor.
I don't think it was ever really
confirmed. They say that they
have the tapes to prove it .
Sana nilabas na lang nila para matapos na.

I truly believe her. I truly believe
in her innocence. Feeling ko nga parang
ako lang yata naniniwala sa kanya.
But I do. Kasi kahit sino tanungin ko
they think she did it. They all hate her
they think that she's perfect. I really don't
understand that. Parang natutuwa
yung tao na puede din pala sya magkamali na
she's just like the rest of us.
I'm sure that she is just like
the rest of us. Kaya nga lang
she's married to Richard Gomez.

Im posting the Article of Lucy para naman
you can also read what she has to say

The shoplifting rumors
LOVE LUCY By Lucy Gomez
The Philippine STAR 01/30/2005

Over the weekend, I received an e-mail from Rizza,
my friend in Cebu. She forwarded me something she
received in her inbox, a story that was all about me.
It was entitled "Si Lucy naman" and I am sharing it
with you in full. Three separate e-mails were sent by
a Katherine, Lorraine and Raphael and they
forwarded it to no fewer than 33 e-mail addresses.
(By the way, I know their full names, e-mail
addresses and all the people they had forwarded
their messages to.) Please go through it first before
you go on reading the rest of my article.

Subject: Si Lucy na naman!
Narinig ko na itong story na ito shocking!
Now she shops daw with bodyguards following
her just to make sure na walang kukunin,
or kung meron man, binabalik na lang nila.
Nobody’s perfect talaga

Re: Fw: Tsismis naman tayo...
Si Lucy (asawa ni Richard),
nagsa-shopping sa Rustan’s. Tapos maya-maya,
nilapitan nung manager. Eto ang dialogue:
Manager: Ma’am, can we check your bag?
Lucy: No, this is my bag. It’s private property.
You don’t have the right to inspect it just
because you feel like it.
Manager: Actually, ma’am, since you’re on
our premises, we have every right to inspect it.
Bumigay na rin finally si Lucy.
At may nakitang perfume or wallet or watch
or something, di ko na maalala, dun sa bag niya.
Tapos tumawag yung manager kay Richard Gomez
at ibinalita na "Sir, we caught your wife shoplifting."
At ang sagot ni Richard ay buntong-hininga, sabay,
"Shoplifting? Again?" So pinagbayad lang naman ang
mag-asawa, pero hindi na ginawan ng storya. At yan
daw ang dahilan kung bakit medyo mabait si
Richard Gomez sa ABS-CBN ngayon. Kasi ABS owns
Rustan’s or they have a relationship or something
(I really don’t pay attention all that well, hehe),
so kapag napikon ang ABS kay Richard Gomez
, pwede nila ilabas yung surveillance tape of Lucy
bagging the...umm, something. Ayos, we have
our very own Winona Ryder! =)
Client ko ang ABS-CBN and nakwento na rin
nila eto sa min. Take note, reliable ang source
ko kasi somebody from the top management
etong kausap namin. Klepto nga daw si Lucy.
Sayang ‘no?! She’s beautiful pa naman, wala
talagang perpektong tao.

I wrote about this very same rumor on June 6, 2004.
If you read that, you probably remember my writing
that I would always choose to count my blessings
rather than dwell on something as mean as that.
And I meant it sincerely. It may not have been easy
turning a blind eye and a deaf ear to a nasty story
but that was how I chose to fight the battle at that
time. Why dignify it with an answer? Why even
try to explain and convince people that
it simply did not happen?

Let it be said that I was hoping it would die a
natural death, as I was sure it would.
I was banking on how baseless it was anyway.
I had never been fond of fanfare and gimmickry
and the last thing I wanted to do was call attention
to myself.

I do not seek publicity and I definitely am not one
of those who believe that publicity, good or bad,
is still publicity. Perhaps the main reason
I did not acknowledge the rumor specifically
then was because I felt that by doing so, I would
only succeed in spreading it some more.

Kris Aquino, who was the first to inform me,
tried to persuade me to stare it in the face,
so to speak, not by writing about it reservedly
(as I admit I did) but by bravely acknowledgin
g it in addition to exploring my legal options.
The one thing she told me that continuously
reverberates in my mind until now is that
"An urban myth, when perpetuated,
will soon become a legend."
And Kris was right all along. Not only was the
rumor perpetuated, it even became more
maliciously embellished along the way to
make it appear even more true.
I never realized people could be so mean.

Given the circumstances now, there is no reason
why I should be coy about it. It has spread far and
wide and by coming out to talk about it openly
I am, in a way, also acknowledging the severity of
the issue and coming to terms with what it actually
is: Pure character assassination. The only difference
then and now is that what was initially talked about
in whispers and hidden behind guessing games and
blind items is now declared. And all fingers are quick
to point at me.

There seems to be a concerted effort to hurt and
crush me, for what reason I really don’t know.
Perhaps I may never find out. All I know is that
although it is hurtful, offensive, and frustrating
all at the same time, this is not the kind of thing
that will kill my spirit.

Over the past few months, the same rumor that
started as a blind item in The Manila Standard
has grown incredibly by leaps and bounds and
the original story bloomed and grew to include
specifics. Whereas it started with me supposedly
shoplifting a Bulgari watch at Rustan’s, it also went
on to include shoplifting sprees at Tiffany
(still at Rustan’s). And if you go back to the e-mail
on this page, I apparently was also found
with a wallet and perfume. Dead on,
caught in the act. Why a wallet and perfume?
Are those not affordable?

The story goes on. Apparently, talk has it that
I shoplift not because I want to but because I need to.
The story, whatever the version, ultimately concludes
that I am a kleptomaniac, that my husband has
checked me into rehab for this behavioral disorder,
and that there was a conscious attempt on our
part to whitewash the whole incident.
If stories are to be believed, Richard
even paid off Rustan’s a handsome sum just so they
will keep the whole thing away from the prying eyes
of media and cover up the real story.

All this talk started to travel through the grapevine
in January 2004. It has been a year since.
Sadly for me, it has not died down.

My friend Mons was in a gathering and this
shoplifting story came up. Mons came to my defense
by saying that there was no truth to it, that she even
got to talk to the manager of Rustan’s –
even the owners themselves – all of whom denied
the supposed incident. She finally decided to rest her
case when she realized that although the people she w
as with acknowledged that it most probably was not
true, they still would rather believe that it was.
How else could you make heads or tails about some
of the things said in that gathering? "
It’s probably not true, but hayaan mo na.
At least it is nice knowing that Lucy is not perfect,
and that God is fair, after all." Another one added, "
Of course, she will deny she is a klepto. I
t is a disease and Lucy herself is not aware that
she is afflicted with it.

" Another friend of mine was at the parlor
where two well-dressed matrons were passing
off the story as Bible truth to whoever cared
enough to hear. "It is such a comfort knowing that
Lucy actually has a defect. Poor thing. But at least
no one is perfect pala talaga.

" Mayor JV Ejercito was at a gathering
and an ABS-CBN newscaster reportedly told JV:
"Mayor, alam mo ba that Lucy is a klepto?"

Many different people have also told me that a
relative of the owners of Rustan’s has been
confirming to people that the incident really
did happen. It makes people believe because
she is, after all, married to a Tantoco.
And Rustan’s is owned by the Tantocos.
A good friend of hers though came to her defense
and said that in fairness, whenever she is asked
she just chooses to neither deny nor confirm anything.
And that probably they just take her silence as a
confirmation and assume that it really is true.
Otherwise daw, how difficult can it be to say it isn’t so?

My friend who gets treatments at Marie France,
Makati, took me out to lunch before the holidays,
oblivious that I already heard that rumor as far
back as January of last year. It wasn’t until we
were almost about to start dessert that she really
took on a serious, somber tone. She finally said
that she was gathering enough guts to tell me that
her Marie France attendants were discussing
what a sad thing it was for someone like me to
turn out to be a klepto. My friend said that it wasn’t
true but the two therapists insisted that it really
was because earlier, they had serviced
two Rustan’s executives who told them
that they would actually be nervous whenever
I walk through the doors of Rustan’s because
they knew I would again be shoplifting.
Oh yes, and that these executives had
everything on tape, too.

Speaking of surveillance tapes, Karen Davila
supposedly has it in her possession and that
the station she belongs to is just waiting for
the right time to air it. Although I already
know what Karen has to say about it
(Richard was able to speak to her and
told her that if they really had a tape
to please go ahead and show it ASAP.
Perhaps doing so would really clear
the air and solve the mystery,
if you can call it that.) I am not in the
position to share with you what they
talked about. It’s best that it comes
straight from Karen’s mouth.
Suffice it to say that Karen
has denied commenting on it
on her radio program , denied too that
she was given the Rustan’s surveillance tape.

Ek Channel, a showbiz-oriented talk show that airs
every Saturday afternoon on ABS-CBN, featured
re-enacted segments for two consecutive Saturdays
detailing the crime I supposedly committed.
Although these were blind items on both occasions,
the clues they gave out apparently sounded enough
like me to make people I knew who happened to be
watching call and say that I was being maliciously
referred to. After the airing, a source from the station
told me that although they admittedly really had no
proof, the people behind the show still chose to air
the segments because it made for good copy.

In contrast, The Buzz (still an ABS-CBN show)
never touched on the topic. Kris, bless her,
was decent enough to fight for a factual approach
over and above a malicious gossipy one that was
purely based on hearsay. She told the people on her
show, most of whom insisted that there
really was a Rustan’s surveillance tape catching me
red-handed, that although she knew for a fact that
there was no truth to it she will go ahead and run the
story if and only if the show’s staff could produce the
tape to support their claim.

No one could produce a tape. No story was run.
And I have Kris to thank for that. What is even
more touching is that she did that on her own,
and I just found out about it by chance much,
much later.

Other friends of mine who were vacationing in the
States got wind of the rumor while they were there.
At a gathering, a gay employee from Rustan’s
was announcing to one and all that I was caught
shoplifting, and that all the employees from the
department store were called to a meeting and
informed of the incident. Then he delightedly
laughed and said "Ang saya, saya, hindi pala
talaga siya perfect. She really cannot have it all!
God is good!"

I lead a very normal life, I hardly ever go out,
and that is probably not dramatic enough for others.
That is probably why they have to spice it up by
concocting incredible incidents. I feel no need to
enumerate the reasons why the shoplifter they
created in their minds could not be me.
I don’t have to explain myself. My conscience
is clear and I know that all this will pass,
eventually. Maybe not anytime now,
not anytime soon. But it will – that much I believe.

If at all, what I really find hurtful about all
this is that there actually are people who
would happily embrace an untruth just to
make them feel better about their own lives.
Must you fault me for having what you think
is a perfect life? I never passed myself off as
perfect, neither did I ever rub on anyone’s face
that I lead a perfect life. Not that it should matter,
really, but I do not have a perfect life.
I do, however , have a very happy one,
but it is not without its share
of heartaches. Is that fair enough for you?
Happiness, more than being a choice,
is a blessing I enjoy. Must I be punished
and hated for that?

All that said, I dare those who claim to have
the Rustan’s surveillance tape to send it to
media. Make hundreds of copies, if you want,
and send them all out. If, for some reason,
you conveniently " lost" the tape,
present your witnesses – all those people you
know who strongly allege that they know for
a fact that I did it, or that they were actually
there when I did it.

Don’t just say "basta, a reliable source told me…"
Name your reliable source. Field them to the
tri-media. I’m sure the showbiz talk shows
will be more than happy to interview them
live on their show. And please do it soon.
Maybe then we will really get to the bottom
of this and find out the truth.
Play this game fairly. You accuse me –
now support your claim with facts,
not just with hearsay. Most of you probably
just heard about it from a friend
who in turn also just heard it from
a friend’s friend but by perpetuating
the rumor, you, too, share in the lie.

The world is round, what goes around
does come around and I have seen that
happen enough times to appreciate it as
a fact of life. Meanwhile, I anchor my
strength, as always, on a God greater
than even the nastiest rumor
that could ever be said about me.
There lies my peace of mind. And at the
end of each day,I sleep well knowing
that I have wronged no one,
stepped on no one. I really hope
you can say the same for yourself.

Life may not be fair, but God is.

Monday, January 24, 2005

ME: A Student???

I went out with my parents yesterday for breakfast.
While eating my mom has suddenly brought
up the idea that I should go back to school to
become a Special Education teacher. Parang
nasamid nga ako nung sinabi nya kasi I never
really thought of myself as a teacher.

Kasi parang di ako creative daanin ko na
lang sa tyaga. Saka reklamo ako reklamo about
how expensive it is to send my child to a
Special School. Baka this can be a challenge to
find out kung kaya ko ba and how far.
Malay nyo ako na lang magtuturo sa kanya.

So para di na talaga sya plano na lang,
I decided to do something about it so
nag inquire na ako. I wanted to try UP
kaya lang grades daw tinitignan.
So di na lang dun.. May isa akong school
napagtanungan well I hope this goes well
Kasi pag pumalpak lagot ako kasi ako
magbabayad tuition ko.

I also enrolled myself in a non degree course sa
UP Open University para masabi ko sa sarili
at sa mga anak ko na at one time nag aral din ako sa
University of the Philippines
The title of the course is
Sana matuloy na itong mga plano ko..
Kung matutuloy ito God will provide
the provisions and the way for me to do so.
Kung hindi naman maybe di pa ngayon ang time.

Thursday, January 20, 2005

Prayer for Propsperity

Someone sent me this email.. Iniisip ko baka lang makatulong sya..

Heavenly Father, most Gracious and Loving God
I pray to you that you abundantly bless my family
and me. I know that you recognize, that a family
is more than just a mother, father, sister, brother,
husband and wife, but all who believe and trust in you.

Father, I send up a prayer request for financial
blessing I know that that the power of joined prayer
by those who believe and trust in you is more
powerful than anything. I thank you in advance
for your blessings.

Father God,deliver us from debt and debt burdens.
Release your Godly wisdom that I may be a good
steward over all that You have given me

Father, for I know how wonderful and mighty
you are and how if we just obey you and walk in
your word and have the faith of a mustard seed
that you will pour out blessings.

I thank you now Lord for the recent blessings
I have received and for the blessings yet to come
because I know you are not done with me yet.
In Jesus name, I pray, Amen.

Sumbong ng Isang Mommy

Maraming adventures si Joshwa lately
like naka-akyat sa bubong namin.
Nalingat ang bagong yaya at nakalabas
ng bubong buti na lang di nahulog. ..
We had to let the yaya go nung nag paalam
sya coz that was the second
accident nung sya ang nagbabantay.
The 1st one naiwan nya bukas ang
door nakalabas si Joshwa muntik na masagasaan
buti na lang nahawakan sya.

Joshwa will be going to school in June
sa Odea International School (pangalan lan yan
di talaga sya presyong International School)
Mas mahal pa ata ng 10k kung sakaling gawin
kong whole day ang ABA( applied behavioral
analysis behavior modification program)
kaya dun na lang kami uli 3x a week na ABA
plus school and OT & Speech pagdating ng June.

I have been feeling so guilty that I could
only afford to pay for the
OT and Speech and nothing else.
Sa sobrang di na kami makabayad
binitawan na kami ng ABA nya.
I understand and hold no grudge
against the center kasi negosyo yan eh.
Very lucrative ang business ng special kids.
( di ako sarcastic totoo ito)

Things have been hard for us lately as
far as finances are concerned.
Umalis ang husband ko papuntang
US para mag work. So hopefully by
June makaka enroll na si Joshwa.
Please help me pray for my husband
na maging okay sya US. Kasi in all honesty di
namin ma-afford ang services ng therapy centers
and help for my son kung walang money.

The foundation that I want Joshwa to get into is
BMAC ( Behavioral Management
for Autistic Children).Pero suerte lang ang
nakakapasok. 1 1/2 years na kaming waitlisted
tapos nag pa assess na si Joshwa sa kanila nung
November. Ang feedback na narinig ko ay parang
gusto nung Directress na i-pasok sa program
si Joshwa dun sa 15k a month (which is the lowest
the highest is at 60k a month) Kaya ko yan kung
sa kalsada kami nakatira at di kami kakain.
In all honesty di ko talaga kaya sya bayaran.
Kung kaya lang namin why would
we go through all that trouble of completing the
requirements at the expense of my son and the
help that he could get?

Im just a frustrated mom. I want all of what's
best for my son. It's hard to have a special child.
Ang hirap sa kalooban ng isang nanay na nakikita
mo nahihirapan ang anak mo tapos wala kang
magawa. Lalo na pag may masakit sa kanya kasi
di na nya masabi kung saan talaga masakit.

Sunday, January 16, 2005

Happy Birthday Joshwa!

Happy Birthday to my dearest baby Joshwa. It's been 4 years since you were born.. I keep thinking were has the time gone my baby is such a big boy? . We celebrated your birthday in a different way. I initially wanted to have a party but we had to attend a family reunion on January 15. Your Inay suggested that why not celebrate your birthday at their home in Jala-jala Rizal. It was fun a lot of people came to greet you a Happy Birthday. Your Inay prepared a sumptous lunch, Tita Beth & Tito JR bought cake and ice cream.

Only one person was missing your daddy. . I miss your dad so much.. I'm sure he would have wanted to be here to watch you blow out your candle. Daddy misses us so much and he stayed in the United States because he wanted to give you a good future. He wants to send you to a good school that will help you but we couldn't afford to send you there if Daddy was here. He loves us so much that he was willing to make that sacrifice.

I don't want you to forget that you have a Daddy who loves you and always thinks about you. My only wish is that we would be with Daddy..I don't know when or how.. Whether we will go there or daddy will come home. I know in my heart that day will come.

I love you so much Joshwa.. Happy Birthday!!

Friday, January 07, 2005

I know that this is a dramatic and sentimental and mushy entry.. Im just depressed because I miss my husband so much.

We both decided it would be best if he stayed behind in the US to test the waters. I don't know if I'll ever get used to the idea that he's not here anymore. I miss him so much. I feel this void in my heart and this lump in my throat. I feel like such a crazy person always crying. I couldn’t even stand to look at our photos or his clothes. I know I’ll start crying again. Some might say well he's not dead yet.. Well that's true also basta I just miss him so much..

This was the hardest thing that I’ve had to do. It took every ounce of self control not to tell him that I don’t think I can do it. I know that If I do tell him that I can’t do it. He would definitely go home with me. I love him so much that I want to try to let him go despite the pain that I’m feeling right now.I know they all tell me that I’ll get used to it. How do I get used to the fact that he isn’t there? This pain that I feel won’t go away.

I’m really trying my best to be strong and keep things together. It’s tough.. really rough.. I know people are so happy that he has decided to try his luck there in the US.. I’m happy that’s he finally decided to try.. But I felt sad because I miss my best friend, my husband, my lover and my worst critic all rolled into one. He is the one person in this whole world who can truly say that he knows me.. .

Before I left I had to make a very difficult decision either to stay with him or go home to be with the kids. I chose to stay with my children.

To those wives out there who are physically separated from their husbands. How do you cope with the loneliness? Does it really get better in time?

Saturday, January 01, 2005

Vacation Highlights

Before Dec. 11 -- cramming for the wedding; trimming wedding special effects: unity candle (here it is in a set of 3--2 small ones and a big one); veil; coin and ring holders; garters and the bridesmaids gown.We rehearsed on the 9th and then dinner.

Dec. 11 -- wedding activities. We were so blessed because the sun came out for 80's temp. Just the week before the temp dropped lowest in the past 80 years in LA. So the briight sunny day was God's gift as we were wearing barong and I was in formal gown and the beautiful bride was in off-shoulder gown. The wedding was at 2 but reception was at 6:30 to give time for newly weds to have photos taken to include the sunset shots. The reception was held at the Castaway overlooking part of LA. Beautiful place! They had to move wedding a week early to get the place and all they can book was the smallest function room with the view. Good thing it had an adjacent terrace. We partied til about 11. It was such fun!

Dec. 14 -- The whole family including newlyweds and my lola (9 of us) headed for the East Coast. We got to SUPER COLD JFK before 9 and home at my Ninang Stella's house to a HEARTY warm dinner. Pig out!

Dec 15--We took Manhattan on the chilly 15th, divide the group between first timers and vets. We went to Empire State Building and The Statue of Liberty.. Then an unplanned dinner at my Aunt's place at the Yonkers.

Dec. 16 -- We left early for DC with a rented van. Got there mid afternoon. We drove around starting off from Capitol Hill and landed between the White House and the monument and took tons of photos. The group had dinner at Tita Flor's family's residence in Virginia. Syempre pa, pig out again. Forget low fat!!! We divided the group between the young and the restful. With the young staying with my new bro-in-law's family friends who were also sponsors to the wedding.

Dec 17--- We went to 2 Museums, Lincoln Memorial and Arlington Cemetery. Then we went to a Chinese Buffet for Dinner.

Dec. 18 -- we headed north to Jersey passing by to visit our dear priest family friend at the Shrine of St. John Neumann in Philly. We had dinner and spent the night in New Jersey at my Ninang Shag's home .. Feasted again. Forget diet altogether!!!

Dec. 19 -- The Good Lord heard our prayers. It SNOWED!!! But not too much, only 3 inches. That allowed our schedule to go as planned. We went to Central Park, Fao Schwarz(sp), Toys R Us, ( grabe may ferris wheel sa loob), Rockefeller Center & Times Square.

Dec. 20 -- Weather was high at 20!!! That's negative in Centrigade. May wind chill factor pa. Kaya effectively negative even in Farenheit! So we had to do most indoors. We started late with a buffet Japanese lunch. Now that was some SUMO meal we had!!! Ang sarap!!! We still decided to visit the Met. Was so excited to see the MET. The dramatic stari climb from the car made me feel like I was appearing in Dr. Zhivago. Got to the door finally very much in need of the heat, until we were told - "Museum closed on Mondays!" Duh!!
Bwiiiiiiiiiiiissseeeeeeeeeeetttt! Anyway, shopping na lang kami around Union Square. Ay mali shopping na lang sila tapos tag along na lang kami ni Philbert.

Dec. 21 -- Back to L.A. It was great to be back there kasi medyo warm ang weather pero just the same I had fun in the East Coast..

Dec 23 -- I've been waiting all my life to go to Disneyland. We were there for 13 hours!!! It got really chilly at night and becasue of the wind, the electrical and fireworks shows were cancelled. Bad trip!!! And to think we waited over 2 hours for that!!! I missed Joshwa and Andie.. Im sure they would really enjoy Disneyland.

Christmas Eve -- Lola, Mama and I prepared Noche Buena dinner at my bro-in-law's house for our family his family and our relatives from Lemon Grove. Then we opened our gifts.

Christmas Day -- We had dinner at My Aunt's family residence and had really fun party. We sang and had lots of wacky games. It was really fun and we ended at 3 a.m.

Dec. 26 - Went to the outlet with Cathy.. It was fun..

Dec 27-- Laundry day

Dec 28-- It was Philbert's 32 nd Birthday.. We just had chinese take out for Lunch. My sister bought Cheescake which was used as his birthday cake during dinner..

Dec 29--Played Pictionary and Cranium all day..

Dec 31-- We went to Tita Baby's house coz it was Ritchie's bday.. ( brother sya ng BIL ko)

Jan 1-- It was time to go home..