Monday, July 31, 2006

31 Days To Go

I only have 31 Days to go. Am I prepared? No not really.
Am I preparing? Again. No not really.
Our clothes are all ready and sorted I moved
all my scrapbook layouts in the binder albums and that's it.

Joshwa has been banned from eating at Jollibee and
Mc Donalds. He has been on that Jollibee and Mc
Donalds phase for awhile and it's best to train
him to avoid eating there.

I haven't really talked to my mom about what to do
with our stuff like appliances. As if its mine.. the only
decent appliances that I could call my own is my
washing machine and my stereo. The other appliances
came from my parents. Since they gave it to us.
I'll just let them decide as to what to do with it.

I'm not having a despedida. I already had one with
my scrapbook friends and thats it. I couldn't have
asked for a better send off.

I can't wait to leave i truly mean this but I'm also
leaving a part of myself behind. But I'm going into
the biggest adventure of my life. Starting Over.

Thursday, July 27, 2006


Im selling all of my scrapbook stuff.
Akala ko nung una di sya magiging madali
pero surprisingly di naman sya ganun
kahirap. Nung una iniisip ko pa lang na
ibebenta ko sya parang nalulungkot ako.
Pero naisip ko di ako dapat malungkot kasi
madali na para sa akin magsimula uli.

Di ko na pagdadaanan yung mga pagkakamali
ko dati na bibili tapos di ko pala kailangan.
At least ngayon mag simula man ako
muli mas alam ko na dapat ko gawin.

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Lurking in the background
Waiting in the shadow
Trying not to be noticed
But Your looks just gave you away.
Very mysterious, yet very charming
Very good looking yet quiet and unassuming
The question on everyone's mind that night


Monday, July 24, 2006

How God Chooses by: Emma Bombeck

I stumbled upon this and it got me teary eyed...
(Copied from site)

Most women become mothers by accident,
some by choice, a few by social pressures and
a couple by habit.This year, nearly 100,000 women
will become mothers of handicapped children.

Did you ever wonder how mothers of handicapped
children are chosen?What can you do to help your c
child improve his or her behavior?

Follow three basic child rearing rules and
avoid four possible errors.Somehow I visualize
God hovering over earth selecting His instruments
for propagation with great care and deliberation.

As He observes. He instructs his angels to make notes
in a giant ledger."Armstrong, Beth, son. Patron Saint,
Matthew."Forrest, Marjorie, daughter, patron saint,
Cecilia."Rudledge, Carrie, twins, patron saint" give her
Gerard. He is used to profanity."

Finally, He passes a name to an angel and smiles,
"Give her a handicapped child."The angel is curious,
"Why this one, God? She's so happy.""Exactly." smiles God.
"Could I give a handicapped child a mother who does
not know laughter? That would be cruel."
"But has she patience?" asks the angel."I don't want her to
have too much patience or she will drown in a sea of
self-pity and despair, once the shock and resentment
wears off, she'll handle it."I watched her today.

She has that feeling of self and independence that is
so rare and so necessary in a mother. You see, the child
I'm going to give her has his own world. She has to make
it live in her world and that's not going to be easy."
"But Lord, I don't think she even believes in you.
"God smiles, "No matter, I can fix that.

This one is perfect. She has just enough selfishness.
"The angel gasps, "Selfishness is that a virtue?
"God nods."If she can't separate herself from the
child occasionally, she'll never survive. Yes, here is a
woman whom I will bless with a child less than perfect.
She doesn't realize it yet, but she is to be envied.
She will never take for granted a spoken word.
She will never consider a step ordinary.

When her child says "Mumma" for the first time she
will be present at a miracle and know it. When she
describes a tree or a sunset to her blind child, she
will see it as few people ever see my creations."
I will permit her to see clearly the things I see
ignorance, cruelty, prejudice and allow her to rise
above them. She will never be alone. I will be at her
side every minute of every day of her life because
she is doing my work as surely as she is here by my
side.""And what about her patron saint?" asks the
angel, his pen poised in mid-air.God smiles.

"A mirror will suffice

Friday, July 21, 2006

The Fab 5

I was so happy to be able to see them
ay grabe they were so worth the wait.
Sobrang saya nila and I so love their
sense of humor.The best talaga!!

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Fab 5 is coming tomorrow and I can't wait..
Im such a fan talaga.. My camera has been
charged and im all set and ready to go..

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Had a HUGE,HUGE argument with my mom today.
She was talking to me di lang ako sumagot she
started screaming at me. It was so demeaning..
I feel so bad... I dont think she knows the effect
she has on me when she starts screaming like
that and talking like that to me. It makes me
feel so low, unworthy and so belittled. Im sure
she feels like she can't wait til I leave. Well this
are one of those moments that make me feel
like I do too.

Friday, July 14, 2006

Caught in the Middle by Leira Pagaspas

Caught in the middle
Of a woe that is not done by my own doing
Wanting to please my family and the love of my life.

As a third person in the story
I wish I could control it
Finish it to help them
Fix it to help him

Is time and distance my friend or foe?
Always thinking about what I can do.
To please them and help them.
To help him get out of this sticky bind.

Caught in the middle of a woe that is not
done by my own doing.
I just want this to be over and done with.
So that we all could live happily together.
In the land that is supposed to be the land
of ever afters.

Thursday, July 13, 2006


I know I'm moving and I'm supposed to learn how to
drive pero part of me doesn't want to. My parents
and my husband flatly said No out loud when I said
that I wanted to learn how to drive.

I have 7 weeks to go a lot of things can happen.

Monday, July 10, 2006


Derby( yes her real name is really Derby parang
Derby na cockfight and Derby na Kentucky Derby)
is my long lost 1st cousin.. I haven't seen her
in 18 years. Ay grabe nung dumating sya di ako
makapaniwala na sya na yun. I last saw her
when she was 3 years old and now 21 na sya..
I really never thought that I would see her
again and yet I was lucky to be able
to spend some with her.