Thursday, July 31, 2008

Word Camp

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Sunday, July 27, 2008

Slide Show by Philbert

New Photos

I posted new photos of the funeral and burial.
Paki view na lang sa multiply ko eto na yung link

Monday, July 21, 2008

My Eulogy

Saka na ako mag kuento about the burial. Kasi emotionally di ko

pa kaya. Post ko na lang ang eulogy ko. I never got to read it

because di ko kaya. I know I have to be strong but during that

time I just couldn't do it. Di ko talaga kaya. I know kailangan

ko na simulan mag move on pero siguro it would take time.

Ate Beth was more than just my sister in law to me. I loved her more than a sister. I'd like to think that I didn't have an older sister because she was the best older sister any one could ever have. She is my sister, my best friend, my cheerleader and a warrior all rolled into one.

When we first met we hit of right away. We had so many things in common. She was a great listener and I was the biggest talker anyone would ever meet which made us a perfect combination.

When she left for Japan I cried my eyes out and I really felt so bad because I knew just how much I would miss her. I keep telling myself she's not dead she's just in another country. She had a handsome little boy who really looks so much like Philbert. She always called him her gorgeous son. She gave up her teaching career to stay at home to raise him and really mold him into the best he could be.

Though we didn't really keep in touch while she was in Japan we more than made up for the lost time when I saw her again when moved to the United States. It was as if we never lost touch. I would call her everyday and visit their home every other weekend.

Whenever I had trouble dealing with any turbulence in my life especially when it comes to my married life. I could always count on her to be there for me to listen to me. I will miss the way she could always put things into perspective for me. If there was something really disturbing me, she would say, maybe he meant it in a different way or maybe you misunderstood what he wanted to say.

She was as calm as the deepest ocean and kindness was her second nature. She worshipped the Lord with her heart and soul ,honesty, honor, loyalty and integrity and served with fervent joy.

People talk about these values. But she lived them. She embraced them. Though she never got any awards and accolades in her lifetime. She got the best award that anyone could ever hope for. People loved she was highly respected her and they were really happy to have had the pleasure of having met and known someone like her.

She will forever be part of my heart and soul, I know she was prepared for this . I wasn't and they are times when I want to question God and ask him why her? Why all of them all at the same time. But I can't because I know that God has a purpose. I may not understand it but I have to learn how to accept what I can't change.

I thank you Ate Beth that I became part of your life's journey.I will always be proud of you and will forever be honored to be not not just your sister in law but your sister.

Let me leave you with poem that really touched my heart.

When tomorow starts without me
and i am not here to see ...
And if the sun should rise and find your eyes filled with tears for me,
I wish so much you wouldn't cry the way you did today,

While thinking of the many things we didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me,
as much as i love you ...
And each time you think of me
I know you'll miss me, too. But when tomorrow starts without me,
please try to understand ...
That Jesus came and called my name
and took me by my hand
And said my place was ready
in heaven far above ...
And that i'd have to leave behind all those i dearly love.

So when tomorrow starts without me,
don't think we're far apart
for everytime you think of me,
I'm right here in your heart.

Adee at 8 months

Adrianne is growing up so fast

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Joshwa As A Boy Scout

Kanina hinatid ko si Joshwa sa school. Tinanong ako nang
teacher ni Joshwa kung gusti ko daw sya ipalista sa Boy Scout.
Initially ayoko sana kasi iniisip ko baka di pa sya ready.
Pero after I thought about it I realized it will be good for him
to bond with other kids. Kaya sige pinalista ko na rin sya.
Na excite tuloy ako ibili sya nang uniform. I know that
he'll be the cutest boy scout

Happy Anniversary

Today is our 8th wedding anniversary. Parang kailan lang
totoo nga pala talagang ang bilis lang ng panahon.8 years
and 2 kids later. We're still together and that is an achievement.
Kasi may mga times during our first few years na parang
ayaw ko na. God has been so great and sent so many
people and events that made me hold on.

We won't be going out tonight like we used to.We decided
to order food instead. We'll be having Pancit Puti,
Puto, Barbecu, & Lumpiang Shanghai. Di naman
sya super dami ano considering na apat lang naman kaming
kakain.In awhile I will be going out to buy
cake and ice cream. No celebration is complete without
cake and ice cream.

Here's to so many years to us my dear
Philbert. Here's a verse from a song that holds true for us.

Hawak kamay
Di kita iiwan sa paglakbay
Dito sa mundong walang katiyakan
Hawak kamay
Di kita bibitawan sa paglalakbay
Sa mundo ng kawalan

Monday, July 14, 2008

San Agustin Family Killed By Coward

Their story was featured on the news

How Am I Doing?

I'm okay. Trying my best to move on. Masakit talaga pero what else can I do. I need to move on. The remains will be arriving (hopefully) this Saturday.My Brother In Law will be arriving hopefully this Friday. Sana lang everything goes well na para mailibing na sila. They deserve it.

Friday, July 11, 2008

Scrapping Frenzy

Lately I have been in a scrapping frenzy. Pero simple
scrapbooking lang. I have mini albums na tinatago ko
sana pang regalo. Slip ons sya na around 20 leaves which
translates to around 40 pages.I have around 3 albums was
able to do 2 Albums already. Wala pa syang pics I just decided
to make it picture ready so to speak. Nagulat si Philbert dami ko
palang sticker stash. Maski ako rin nagulat di ko alam na ganun
na pala sya kadami. Decided to use up all my sticker stash
before even thinking of getting new supplies. Naglalaway
na talaga ako sa kits ng Studio Azul.It took a lot of restraint
na wag mag email para mag order. Kaya nga ginagamit
ko muna stash ko kasi baka pag meron na namang bago
mag react na si Philbert.

Mamma Mia

I needed to get out of the house maski sandali lang.
My cousin called me last Monday telling me that
she had special screening tickets for Mamma Mia.
I excitedly made plans with her. I was really looking
forward to watching it with her. Then my cousin
called me today and told me na di sya makakasama.
I decided to go out and watch it maski wala akong
kasama. Before I went to the cinema I decided to
check out a Local Scrapbook Store which just
opened in Greenbelt. Items were great muntik
na akong di makaalis. Had to drag myself out
of that store. Went to the cinema watched the
movie and I loved it. I really did.. I was laughing
and laughing and the songs were really great.
It wasn't over sung. The stars had their moments
to shine. Ewan ko ba bakit sa kanila ganda ng
pagkagawa ng musical bakit pag sa pinoy na movie
I find it so baduy. Pag kumakanta or sumasayaw sila.
Maganda sya talaga I really did like it a lot.
I enjoyed it even more siguro kasi alam ko yung
ABBA songs. Di pa rin naman ako ganun katanda
to appreciate ABBA songs. Classic din naman eh.

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

End of the World

Philbert can't stop talking about the event that
will apparently happen on Dec 21,2012.
Apparently end of the world na.
It all started with a feature on History Channel
aba ayun sunod sunod na may pinapanood pa
about the Sumerians at kung ano ano pa.
But honestly di ako naniniwala. Sabi ko sa kanya
all it takes for fear and panic to start is for a person like
him to believe something like this. Tapos ikuento
sa iba and then kakalat na. Ewan ko ba cynical
na ata ako pero di ako naniniwala eh.Si God lang naman
nakakaalam kung kailan matatapos ang lahat.
Wala nang iba.

Speaking of Death pinag uusapan namin ng
MIL ko kung paano bang death ang gusto namin.
Habang natutulog ka, Biglaan or yung dahil sa sakit.
Si MIL gusto nya biglaan or maski tulog sya.
Sabi ko maski dahil sa sakit okay lang sa akin
kasi I want to say goodbye to people that I love.
Gusto ko magbilin at ma-i ready ang sarili ko.
Unfair kasi kung biglaan maraming things na
di mo nasabi kasi di mo rin naman alam eh.
Gusto ko may chance na mag paalam at
makapag sorry sa mga nasaktan at makasabi
kung gaano ko sila kamahal.

Monday, July 07, 2008

What Not To Say When Someone Dies

Found this on the net some are applicable to us.
Some are not.. Very interesting indeed

Don’t . . .
• Don’t say, “I know what you’re going through.” We really don’t know what someone else is thinking or feeling. Every griever’s experience is unique.
• Don’t say anything that will make the mourner feel guilty for the death of their loved one.
• Don’t monopolize the griever’s time at the funeral home or over stay your welcome. Realize that the griever needs to share time with others and also needs time alone.
• Don’t say things like, “You’ll forget …” or “Time will heal your hurt and you’ll get over it.” The mourner doesn’t want to forget their loved one. And you never get over the death of a loved one … you learn to live with it.
• Don’t say anything about the appearance of the deceased at the funeral home to their loved ones.
• Don’t ask: “What happened?” Let the griever share their story when they are ready.
• Don’t violate the griever’s trust in you by sharing personal information with others.
• Don’t say, “Call me if you need anything.” People who need … generally won’t ask. This can also be perceived as though you are just trying to be nice — an offer that is meant to be declined.
• Don’t use hackneyed consolation by saying, “God works in mysterious ways.” “They’re in a better place now.” “You can always have another child.” The griever would do anything to have the deceased with them and these types of sayings often hurt more than they help.
• Don’t force the mourner into a role. “You’re so strong.” “You’ll need to pull yourself together.”
• Don’t try to hurry the griever through their grief. Grief takes time and patience and cannot be done on a fixed schedule. Often the grief process takes years.
• Don’t tell the mourner what they should do. This reinforces a sense of incompetence and each person handles things differently.
• Don’t make philosophical comments, “He wouldn’t want to be a vegetable.” “It’s a good thing for her that she didn’t suffer.”

Friday, July 04, 2008

Thursday, July 03, 2008

On a Lighter Note

The driver of the getaway vehicle has been arrested.
The CHP (California Highway Patrol) said that
he is just as guilty as the driver of that caused
this tragic accident.Even greater news is that
he was recommended to be arrested and
with no BAIL and it happened. He cannot
post Bail.

I know di na nya maibabalik buhay nila pero
at least we know that Justice will be served.

We are off to my inlaws today.The sky is
gloomy and its raining. It mirrors what I'm feeling

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

Thank You

Sa lahat ng mga nag email, nag YM, nag message sa blog ko at nagdasal para sa amin maraming salamat po sa pakikiramay nyo. At the moment we're trying to hold on and cling to one another for strength at this very difficult time. The remains will be arriving in 2 weeks kaya we're preparing for the funeral here. Thanks so much to my sisters sa e-group ko SE, PE and N@W your support really means so much to me dahil di lang tayo basta nag email we're one big happy family. Singit ko lang I had a dream na nakikita ko pictures nila and then i keep hearing the word scrapbook.. Di ko kaya i scrapbook pics nila masyadong masakit. I will do it eventually but not now..

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

REGION: Collision kills three near Lake Skinner

Officers hunt for hit-and-run driver

By CATHY REDFERN - Staff Writer | Monday, June 30, 2008 7:35 PM PDT

WINCHESTER ---- Investigators on Monday were searching for the driver of a pickup that collided with a car on Warren Road on Sunday, killing a mother, father and son from Winchester, the California Highway Patrol reported.

The head-on collision occurred about 8:10 p.m. Sunday near the entrance to the Lake Skinner Recreation Area when the 2007 GMC pickup allegedly crossed over double-yellow lines into the path of the northbound 1991 Chevrolet Malibu driven by Andres San Agustin, CHP officials said.

The crash resulted in the deaths of San Agustin, a 48-year-old Navy medical corpsman stationed at Camp Pendleton; his wife, Maribeth Pagaspas San Agustin, 36, and the couple's 4-year-old son, Angelo, authorities said.

The adults died at the scene, about 100 yards south of the entrance to the park, and the child died about an hour later at Rancho Springs Medical Center, according to Riverside County coroner's officials.

A resident who lives off Warren Road near the crash site said the truck had landed on its roof and that what was left of the family's car was about 2-feet high when he saw it towed away about 1:30 a.m. Monday.

"It was an absolute crumpled mess," David MacKichan said. "... It was pretty disturbing."

MacKichan said he was barbecuing on his front porch when he heard the crash around dusk and saw smoke rising from the truck. He said he called 911 and later spoke to officers and other observers. Officers searched for the pickup's driver from the air and on ground, with at least one canine unit, and searched a neighbor's barn, he said.

MacKichan said he was on the phone with dispatchers and could see several people who had been driving on the road run up to the car and then just stop, apparently when they saw how destroyed it looked. An officer told him there was blood inside the truck and that both air bags had deployed, MacKichan said.

Monday afternoon, the CHP reported they believed the driver had fled with the assistance of another driver, while declining to elaborate.

Officer Ron Thatcher declined to release any details of the investigation, or possible factors leading to the fatal crash. However, he did say evidence was found inside the truck, and that officers were tracking down several leads they hoped would help them find the GMC driver and whomever helped that person flee.

"This is just a very tragic crash; something like this should never have happened," Thatcher said. "And it's compounded now because it's a hit-and-run."

The Marine Corps released a statement in response to the crash. Andres San Agustin was a hospital corpsman, first class, who served with the 1st Medical Logistics Company, 1st Supply Battalion, 1st Marine Logistics Group.

"The Marines and Sailors of Camp Pendleton and the 1st MLG are deeply saddened by this tragic accident and our thoughts are with the Sailor's family and friends," 1st Lt. Kenneth Kunze stated.

Kunze said late Monday he was unable to provide additional information.

The San Agustin family lived in a new neighborhood off Winchester and Pourroy roads. A woman who answered the phone at the home Monday said the family did not wish to make a statement at least until they had complete information from law enforcement.

The man who lives near the crash site, MacKichan, and another man who lives in that upscale rural neighborhood said speeding and other bad driving causes frequent problems at the eastern end of the Wine Country. Racing can be a problem, MacKichan added.

Both MacKichan and his neighbor, Ed Bennett, had stories of other nasty crashes near the spot in the past few years.

"This entire road, from Butterfield Stage all the way out, is just bad all the way around," Bennett said. "It's a little safer here. At least there is a shoulder, but they need turning lanes or slower speeds or something."

The CHP's Thatcher focused more on driving behavior.

"It is a two-lane road with curves in it," he said. "But if you drive in a way that is appropriate for the road, it's not unsafe. Collisions occur because someone was doing something they weren't supposed to do, 99 percent of the time."

Those with information on the crash are asked to call the Temecula CHP office from 8 a.m. to 5 p.m. weekdays at (951) 506-2000.

Staff writers John Hunneman and Teri Figueroa contributed to this story. Contact staff writer Cathy Redfern at (951) 676-4315, Ext. 2621, or e-mail


Thanks Melisse for this beautiful poem..
It really did make me cry,..

When tomorow starts without me
and i am not here to see ...
And if the sun should rise and find your eyes filled with tears for me,

I wish so much you wouldn't cry
the way you did today,
While thinking of the many things
we didn't get to say.

I know how much you love me,
as much as i love you ...
And each time you think of me
I know you'll miss me, too.

But when tomorrow starts without me,
please try to understand ...
That Jesus came and called my name
and took me by my hand

And said my place was ready
in heaven far above ...
And that i'd have to leave behind
all those i dearly love.

So when tomorrow starts without me,
don't think we're far apart
for everytime you think of me,
I'm right here in your heart.