Update

This is just a short update to let you guys that we're okay.. Kids are adjusting well..Oo nga pala may work na ako. Saka na ang updates uli kasi wala pa kaming internet..Thanks for keeping us in your thoughts and in your prayers.

In Manila at last

Andito na kami. Pagkatapos nang pagkahaba habang byahe
dumating na rin kami.Parang bigla kong naiisip na ay ikukuento
ko sa kaibigan ko ito pag uwi ko. Tapos bigla kong maiisip
permanente na nga pala itong pag uwi namin.

This is the start of something new...

Saying Goodbye

Kaninang umaga hinatid ko si Joshwa sa school bus nya.
Parang nalungkot ako bigla kasi mabait talaga sa akin
yung bus driver and yung bus monitor nya. Tapos
talagang love na love nila si Adrianne. When I said my
goodbye parang naiiyak ako. Ganun pala na feel
pag aalis ka na sa isang lugar nang biglaan. Tipong
we were so busy packing, getting ready,
making the arrangements tapos when you finally
sit down it really does hit you aalis na talaga.
Totoo pala talaga na you'll really leave a piece of
your heart behind. We have great memories here..
Became closer with my sister and sister in law.
Joshwa improved so much and of course we
received the best remembrance ever si Adrianne.

Siguro my next post would be from Manila na..

Malapit Na..

Nakaempake na lahat.. Yung last batch ng mga ipapa ship na gamit
kukunin na bukas.Yung mga gamit na iiwanan naibilin na sa mga taong
karapat dapat pagbilinan.. Excited akong umuwi and yet medyo
nalungkot ako kasi nagkaron na kami ng mga kaibigan. Pero sa lahat lahat
ng mga ma miss ko apat na tao ang mamiss ko talaga nang sobra sobra.

Si Grishan sya ang kapatid na sumunod sa akin close kami dati
pero naging mas close talaga kami kasi kami talaga nagdadamayan.
Susunduin nya kami para makapag weekend kami sa kanila.
Natulog sya dito tapos sya ang gumising nang madaling araw
nung umiiyak si Adrianne para lang makatulog ako. Pag may
mali akong ginagawa sya unang nagsasabi sa akin.Kaya nga nung
may nagsabi sa akin na may sinabi daw sya tungkol sa akin
di ako naniniwala.I could go on and on.. Pero i know magkikita pa
rin naman kami. Saka may Vonage naman sa Pilipinas kaya okay lang.
Pero alam ko bukas pag hinatid nya ako talagang maiiyak ako.

Si Brox ay pamangkin ko love na love ko talaga sya kasi sya ang
one and only pamangkin ko. Mabait na bata sya, matalino and
very sweet. Hayyy I will miss him saka talagang love na love sya
ni Joshwa.

Hazel-- Na meet ko sya kasi through another friend and we hit
it off right away. Ninang sya ni Adrianne.. I will miss the fact
that she's just a phone call away.

Ate Beth--- She's not just my sister in law.. She's my sister
na talaga. I love her so much.. She's the Ate that I've always
wanted. Mas close ako sa kanya kasya kay Philbert.
I will also miss our weekend visits.

I'm looking forward to starting a new chapter of our lives in
the Philippines. Things are just going to get better and
I know it..

A Disaster

Which is which?

 

I don't really know what's worse. Yung taong manggagamit who will

do anything and everything to get what they want. Doesn't really

care about whose expense.

 

Or someone na pumapayag mag pagamit (not physically ha) na alam

nyang masama na ang nangyayari pero stands by the sidelines while

the manggagamit wreaks havoc on everyone and leaves a trail of disaster on its wake.

Either because its a decision not do anything or just because that person

has no backbone.

 

Either way it's a disaster.. I don't know what I'll choose if I have to pick which

side I want to be in.

Now It Can Be Told..

We are going home!!!! Philbert will be transferred to their
Makati office.I'm looking forward to it.. Initially to be
honest I wasn't really keen on him taking it. Kasi I really
thought that we would be growing old here and the kids
will grow up here. This was really not an easy decision
to uproot the kids again. We really thought about this
asked for counsell and prayed and prayed about it.

But something happened that changed
my mind and sealed the deal for us na sort of answered
prayer na rin. Joshwa wandered off again and I almost went
crazy looking for him. Dami pa namang child molesters na nagkalat
talagang maloloka na ako kakahanap.
Luckily someone found him but I told myself that's it.
can't go through this again.What if next time mawala na uli
si Joshwa tapos di ko na sya makita.
Then I told myself thy will be done Lord.
If you think mapapabuti
kami sa Manila then so be it.

At least sa Manila I could afford to hire someone
to help me look after Joshwa.
Then everything fell into place my mom was
able to find a home for us in such a short notice.
2 friends are going to help me find a job
if I should decide that I'm ready to work.

I'm looking forward to seeing my scrapbook friends,
visiting the newest malls and new places.

Wish us luck as we go through a new adventure
in Manila.

Still Packing

Di pa rin tapos pag iimpake ng gamit..Si Philbert na lang
pinapagawa ko kasi mas magaling sya pag iimpake at
pag aayos ng mga gamit. Hopefully sa pupuntahan
namin medyo magtatagal na kami dun. Within this week
namin malalaman kung kailan ba talaga ang alis namin
di pa ako nagsabi sa school. Kasi baka magsabi ako
tapos di pa pala kami aalis agad mawawalan pa nang
school placement ni Joshwa.

I will let you guys know soon kung saan kami pupunta.
This week i-blog ko na rin yun. Wait ko lang yung actual
ticket para sure na sure na talaga.

Packing

We're currently trying to pack frantically
because Philbert has a new assignment.
If the plans push through we have to leave in 2 or 3 weeks
at the most. Will discuss the details if and when we get there.

I never realized packing could be so stressful.
Grabe!! tempers are flaring up well mostly his temper.
Talagang naniniwala na talaga ako sa power of the spoken
word. I was just chatting with a friend last December
she was telling me that she hates the packing and unpacking
and moving around. I told her I want that kind of adventure.
Tapos eto na nangyari na... Hayyyyy!!!! ayoko na pala..
We have to uproot Joshwa na naman. Pero this is for the
family eh.This is the career break that Philbert needs.

Please pray for us na lang that everything
falls into place.

DENSE???

I have a friend who for many years wanted to tell me that
she wasn't into men she was scared that I was a homophobic.
We were really close and people were always asking me
if she was straight of course she was I would tell them that she was.
I remember even in college some classmates were telling me
that she wasn't straight but I defended her and last October
she came out and told me that what people were saying about
her was true all along.

I did tell her that she made me feel so stupid because
I was the last to know. I tell her almost everything and
anything about meand yet something as major as this she wouldn't
tell me because she doesn't think I would understand
She said that she always wanted to tell me.

Why didn't I learn from the past? this has happened before
to another person in my life. She was always hanging
out with this girl. The girl was always at her house and
people were asking me if they were together and
I would tell themthat it's really not nice to put malice
onthe actions of other people.

I simply refusedto believe that she wasn't straight.
I never asked her because if it were true I was
hoping that she would tell me.

Until we attended a support group meeting and that
was where she casually told the other people
there that she had a girlfriend. I almost fell out
of my chair and if i was drinking something
i almost surely spit it out.

Am I homophobic? I don't think so.I have friends and
relatives who are gay and lesbians.I accept them for who
they are but I admire them for being true to themselves.

I know i'm rambling here.. maybe next time I hear
something about a friend maybe I could just ask
them straight up if it's true or not so that
I wouldn't be the last to know

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sorry tabingi kasalanan ni Mommy

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Adrianne chatting with Daddy

No Scrapping Mojo

I've been itching to scrap lately.. Great but the moment
I sit down and think of what I want to start on. The mojo
disappears. Kakainis!!! Its like I want to do it na already
and yet I can't seem to squeeze it in. I know my friends would
say nothing like a little scrapshopping to help you bounce back.
hmmm... although I have been eyeing the new crop-a-dile II
and the cricut design studio.. Hayyyy wish lists are endless
I admit i've been good lately I only made 2 scrapbooking
related purchases this month which is a record in itself.

Pero in fairness I did all of our christmas cards last Christmas.
I am proud to say that I didn't buy any Christmas card
I made them all.Didn't take any photos of the cards that
I sent because as soon as I made the cards I wrote our
greetings and put them on an envelope then sent
them as soon as i have finished them to beat the christmas
rush.

I was really touched that some of the recipients emailed
me to send me their thank you's. I really am.. It warmed my
heart to let me know that someone took the time to thank
me to say that they appreciated my work.

Pero after the Christmas cards I feel like it sucked
the mojo right out of me. Maybe it needed a break'
and will come back when I least expect it. With
a vengeance. In the meantime while I wait maybe
I do need to do some scrap shopping to help me
bounce right back.

Update on Joshwa

Since my tita asked about Joshwa.. Kuento ako ng kaunti

Joshwa is super kulit di mo na mautakan. Hirap na rin utuin. He is a keen observer we are really careful about what we say or do infront of him kasi ginagaya nya. Teache nya has only good words for him kaso minsan mautak sya. Kasi pag may ginagawa na task na ayaw nya like writing. He will go to the signs corner and put the STOP infront. Kung puedeng makalusot lulusot like magtutulog sya sa class.Tapos pag may absent he will go to the front and remove the name nung absent for the day. Teacher's little helper daw sya saka he will volunteer to put the day for the day in the board. Pag may gusto sya very focussed sya and he can teach himself how to do it.He is closer to his dad and will do things na ginagawa nang daddy nya like when it comes to food. When Im feeding him dinner tagal maubos pero when Daddy does it maski ano pa yung dinner he will try to eat it. He has eaten eggplant, monggo and fish. He is very independent and sometimes doesnt want to ask for help. Hayyy lumalaki na sya and yet somehow he is a like a baby pa rin.

Lately he has learned to use his Daddy's Zune. Eh kaso baka naman masira nya yun. So I decided to get him a Toshiba Mp3 Player. He loves it and really uses it a lot.

Here's the proof:

The song eh di ano pa Wowoweee and some songs na pinasikat ni Willie.. Oh my gosh Joshwa really loves him.. Kaya maski ano pa sinasabi nang mga iba about him I can't hate him kasi Joshwa really loves him. It was like when Joshwa discovered Wowowee ang daming mga nabuksan sa kanya. So how can I hate him? I dont care about what he does in his personal life all I know is iba yung joy na binigay nya sa anak ko. Joshwa's knows the song by heart. Kaya nga pag inaaway ni Joey si Willie pag nagpaparinig sya naiinis ako kay Joey nililipat ko ang TV.I know i'm weird pagdating sa mga ganyan pero you can't blame me. From then Joshwa has been listening to other songs na ang bagong song na alam ni Joshwa ay yung jingle ng Greenwich i can hear him trying to sing it and gosh weird na talaga ang mga last song syndrome ko.. Pero maski may alam pa rin syang song he always goes back to the Wowowee..

Happy Birthday Andie.

Today is Andie's 8th Birthday..

I feel sad that there's no way for me to see her

talk to her, hug her or even kiss her.

I feel the void that she left in our lives..

Even if we have our own daughter

it doesn't help me at all. She's never going

to be replaced. There were many what if's and

what could have been's. As far as Andie

is concerned.

I hope that she's having a happy birthday.

I hope she has a cake with candles that she

could make a wish and blow it out. Some ice cream

and some gifts that she could open.

We love her so much.. We will always

keep her memories in our hearts..

Blender Bottle

I never thought that I'd be impressed with whatever it is
that they sell on tv. Usually kasi pag may nabibili ako
na binebenta sa home shopping pangit ang quality.
Pero naaliw ako dito sa product na ito:

Let me just paste what it says on the website of Home Shopping Network kung saan ko sya binili

This 4-pack of 28 Ounce Blender Bottles makes it easy to mix everything from powdered drinks to pancake mix, without the hassle of dragging out and having to clean the mixer or blender. Just drop the innovative BlenderBall into the cup, screw on the top and shake it until your ingredients are completely mixed. Ideal for whipping up sports drinks at the gym, scrambling eggs for breakfast or mixing delicious dressings for your salad, you'll find uses for your Blender Bottles wherever you go.

28 oz. Blender Bottle Shaker and Mixer Set Features:
(4) 28 ounce cups with screw-on lids and stainless steel wire whisk BlenderBalls
Large drink/pour spouts with snap-close flip top
Easy-grip ridges
Embossed ounce and millimeter markings - fill to the top for 28 ounces of your favorite refreshment
Dishwasher safe

I love this product..

This is not a paid post..

7 Weird Things About Me

I was tagged by my friend Pinky

1. I have an unusual fascination for collecting things
about St. Therese.I don't want a big collection
just small things that I carry in my purse or a chain
that I wear around my neck.

2.I always call out to St.Anthonywhen I'm looking
for something.Weird?? hey but it works..

3. I used to think that I had a onewho got away story.
But when I saw him again I was soo thankful
I was no longer with him.

4. I have a photographic memorywhen it comes
to birthdays. I don't know why.

5. In my head I already have a plan
of what Adrianne's first birthday will be.

6. I share a special sisterly with my cousin Bee.
I should feel guilty that I'm closer to her more than with my
other sister. But strangely enough I don't weird huh?

7. I miss Andrea so much. I think about her everyday.
I don't talk her about as much hoping that it would be less painful.
The pain of losing her I will carry it and I don't think that
the ache and the longing will ever go away.

Adrianne @ 3 months

Adrianne is 3 months today.. Where does the time go? She's smiling more and more and starting to Coo..She goes by many nicknames but the one she really responds and smiles to is when we call her Adee (pronounced as Ay-Deee) And she knows me because she looks for me when her dad is carrying her. It seems that because of what happened with Joshwa we are more attuned to her milestones and developments..

ADRIANNE