Happy Birthday Philbert

Today is Philbert's birthday..
So to my love I say Happy Birthday we may
not be together now but we will be together
soon. You would always be 25 to me..
Since 25 ka forever does that mean
I'm forever 21 since you are 4 years older?

Here's a poem that I found by E.E. Cummings.

I LOVE YOU MUCH(MOST BEAUTIFUL DARLING)

More than anyone on the earth and I like you
better than everything in the sky -sunlight
and singing welcome your coming.

Although winter may be everywhere,
With such a silence and such a darkness
No one can quite begin to guess (except my life)
the true time of year- And if what calls itself a world
should have.

The luck to hear such singing or glimpse such
Sunlight as will leap higher than high
Through gayer than gayest someone's heart
at your nearness.
Everyone certainly would(myMost beautiful darling)
believe in nothing but love

Joshwa and I celebrated Christmas together
but it was weird because It felt sad and cold.
Joshwa opened all of the gifts his and mine.
He had fun opening the gifts he had fun
with the wrapping paper and forgot about
the gifts all together. Here I was watching
him and taking a video and I was happy
to see him in a good mood and smiling for
the camera.

I spent Christmas with my Lola and some tito's,
tita's and cousins but still something was
missing. While I was eating and partaking
of the feast that is called Noce Buena.
Silently I was praying to God please I never
want to go through this kind of Christmas again.
I know that I should count my blessings etc and etc.

I wanted to get into christmas "spirit"
but still It felt weird that I couldn't.
I cant help it I miss my family .so what is family
anyway right? Joshwa is family but what I meant
was parents, my sisters,my nephew and most especially
my husband.


It was so sad and I felt pathetic
but I cant help it. But it's okay I know
that everything happens for a reason.
God will reveal it in time.. Not my time
but in his perfect time.

So for all of you who felt happy and
jolly and all sorts of happy emotions
this holiday season I say good for you.

For some of you that felt like I did
well then I feel for you and I sincerely
know what you're going through.

Our Christmas Letter

Only twelve more days till
Christmas!Time just seems
to fly by these days.Last year
we were just getting ready for
a trip to the United States.

The past year had lots of ups
and downs for all of us. As we
reach the end of 2005, we are
well, thankful and anticipating
some changes in our lives.
This year we will be spending
Christmas with my Lola and
Tito Rekz and his family because
my parents will be spending
the holidays with Grish, Brox, Nets & Geoff
in the United States.

Joshwa is thriving so well he moved to a new school in
July and has shown some remarkable improvement.
He also started taking KUMON last November and it
has also shown positive feedback. The essence of the
Kumon Method is the curriculum of distinct skill
levels broken down into smaller blocks.
The materials span the entire spectrum from
preschool right through to university level.
Preschool and early primary students flourish
with progress through the levels in small,
manageable increments.
He can now arrange the number board from
1-30 and he is now starting to utter words.


On another note please include Joshwa in your
prayers we recently found out that he has to go
through an operation . Something is wrong with
his tongue the initial diagnosis is Ankyloglossia a
condition in which the free movement of the tongue
is restricted due to abnormal attachment of lingual
frenulum towards the tip of the tongue. The schedule
for the surgery is not yet fixed but were looking at
January. I’m positive that with prayers everything
will go smoothly as God is in control.

As for me I went back to school and I’m working
towards finishing my education units this year
and hopefully taking up my teacher’s certification
in August and then getting my Special Education
units by next year hopefully in that order.
I’m still very much into scrapbooking some of my
works can be found at:
http://community.webshots.com/user/digileirs

Philbert is still in the United States working and
hopefully we will be reunited soon.
We both miss him so much.

Time is getting short, so I need to close this letter
and email it before it before the Christmas rush.
I hope to hear from you soon and don’t forget to
send email to tell us how the year was so far for
you and your family. Happy Holidays from our
family to yours.

Philbert, Leira & Joshwa Pagaspas

Dami na akong experiences as far as dealing
with disabilities are concerned. Not with Joshwa but
with other people. (Philbert's family included)
Kesyo kasalanan ko kung bakit sya ganyan kasi
di ko sya kinakausap to excuse lang na special child
to not help them. But i took it all in stride kasi di
naman totoo yun.. Of course it doesnt help that others
can be insensitive as well.
(Others meaning those that I have met only a few times )
Comments such as Autistic pala anak mo di halata..
Iba kasi itsura nila eh.. The worse question asked was
"May ginawa ka ba nung buntis ka?"a worst comment
ever said to me that Autistics shouldn't be allowed
to mix with other kids. Aww.. di naman yan sakit
di yan nakakahawa. Anyway its all good because
I know not everyone will understand because they
all think that it won't happen to them.

I hope that it doesn't kasi what I went through
with Joshwa is something that i would never
wish on someone else. Kasi sobrang masakit
sa isang nanay na makita mo anak mo delayed
sya or nahihirapan sa isang task na simple lang
for other kids. Yung magkasakit ang anak mo
tapos di mo malaman kung anong gagamutin
kasi di masabi sa yo kung ano ang masakit.

The finances are no joke either.. Talagang mabigat
sa bulsa bukas school doesnt have a vacation.
The only time off that we get from school are
the legal holidays. The best part about being
a mom to Joshwa is I really get to appreciate
the simple things that he can do. I can laugh
and relish the little victories that he can do...

Harry Potter & the Goblet of Fire

I wanted to leave the office at 6 pm.
It just wasn't possible mom had to go somewhere
and she needed Joshwa's yaya to help her in
the kitchen. So I had to watch him while his yaya
was busy. Finally at 6:30PM when yaya was done
I gave Joshwa to her kissed my mom and
leave for SM. (Our meeting place)

We had a quick snack at the food court
and we went to Glorietta 1 to purchase
movie tickets. Walked around for a bit
looking for the perfect raffle prizes for
the scrapbook christmas party and
luckily I was able to find a cool
raffle prize.

Then headed for the cinema at around
9PM.

After movie thoughts:

• I loved the movie it was true to the book.

• They're so grown up.. I can't believe it..

• They chose really good parts this time.

• I was disappointed with how they cast

Fleur Delacour & Cho Chang.

Constantine

Was able to watch Constantine Maroulis
last night and I was blown away he was so good.

Constantine is so hot and sexy and he really
does have a good voice There is something
about him he has charisma and great stage
presence.

Music is about expression. Constantine
Maroulis knows how to not only express
emotion, but also provoke it. I admire his
ability to do whatever he feels right.

SINGAPORE

I'm now in Singapore currently enjoying a short
vacation.I want to move here ganda eh.
I can see us living here and starting a new life here.

Going to the US is also a good idea. It's just that
I'm starting to keep all options open.

A Blast From the Past

I recently saw someone from my past.
I've always wondered whatever happened to that
person. Then from out of nowhere I have this
chance to see the person from a group photo
belonging to another friend's friendster account.
All thoughts of what could, should, would have
been have been erased. The if's and but's are now gone.
I wish that person a happy and quiet life.
One that is full of love, dreams and hopes.
The kind of life that I'm now starting to build for myself
and my son

Children are the living message we send to a time we will not see.-Unknown

Happy Halloween!!!!

Im posting my 1st Semester Grades. Im so proud of
myself. Everything was truly worth it. 1 Semester
Down. 1 Semester to go. Then Special Education
here I come

Sleepy!!!

Its now 1:50 AM im in an internet cafe.I'm soo sleepy..
Binabantayan ko ang bidding namin..Ngayon kasi ang
pag quote sa client namin online na ang system.
Imagine my shock when my boss said that I have to
finish the bidding.. Then wait for it to close.
I hope di ito madalas mangyayari.. Buti na lang din
open ang internet cafe na malapit sa amin ng 24 Hours.
Kaunting tiis na lang.. 1 Hour and 18 mins to go.. Tagal!!!!

Thank You

Sa mga nag greet sa akin either via text, email, ym, phone calls.
Thank you so much. Di nyo lang kung paano nyo ako pinasaya.
I was already dreading this day kasi ang dami kong good
memories pag birthday ko. Nasanay lang ako na andyan si
Philbert pag birthday ko pero ngayon wala sya.Pero God is
good kasi many people remembered to greet me...
2 sets of friends organized a birthday celebration for me
Something that has never happened before. Siguro God
is just trying to tell me na make new memories instead
of being sad because Philbert isn't here. Really comforting..
I spent time with Joshwa today and heard him talk without
being prompted. That was the best gift that I have received
today to see him starting to talk and verbalize.
Again, thank you so much.. To my 2 sisters Grishan and Rhanesa
I miss you both so much and I miss Brox also.. Parang maski
ang daming wala dito to celebrate with me. I know that wherever
they are.. (buhay pa sila ha nasa ibang bansa lang) Im sure
they would have wanted me to be there with them to celebrate
with them..

Palitaw

Im back.. Tagal nasira nang internet namin sa office.
Sa wakas at natapos namin ang 1st semester. 12 Units
down and 12 Units to go then SPED here I come.

Hirap pala talaga maging estudyante pero I know
I can conquer the next semester.

Sa mga nagtatanong kung bakit walang update
sorry po medyo busy lang po ako. At nasira pa ang
internet namin sa office. By the way naglilipat din
pala kami ng office. Tapos pinaalis pa ni Mama
ang mga angels so dagdag ang work ko kasi
walang mautusan pag may kailangan ipagawa.
Sabi nga nila if you want something done you
have to do it yourself.

My New Toy

My new
toy is
here..
I love it,
I love it ,
I love it..

Pinoy Big Brother

I know baduy na kung baduy pero
I'm actually starting to like Pinoy Big Brother.
In a twisted way it triggers the chismossa in
me. Mahilig maki chissmiss sa buhay ng iba.
Syempre pa may gusto ako dun.. Si Sam
Gusto ko kasi cute sya.. Saka mukhang mabait
sya eh. I hope whoever wins will deserve
to win tipong walang tinatapakang tao
just like Ethan Zohn was in Survivor

My New Blog

I have a new template..
Thanks to my sister Grishan for the help.
I'm really dumb when it comes to HTML
and what have you.Nothing really
new in my life. Same old same old. I'm excited
because this semester is ending soon. I can't wait to
finish this school year to move on to the next phase
of my life. Either I take SPED or my masteral
degree in Guidance and Counselling. I figured that
while waiting for our migration plans to go through
might as well just use it to further my post graduate
degree. Who knows next I'll blog about is that I'm on my
way to my PhD Degree.

I Won..

I won a contest sa blogsite si Ala Paredes
and since I never usually win anything.
I used it for my lay out and I took a photo

Things have been great lately. Im growing in
my faith as a Christian. A friend has been helping
me and discipling me. Im also involved sa church
as a Sunday school teacher di naman lagi once a
month lang. Dati assistant lang ako tapos I was asked
if i want to be an assistant team leader
(meaning i'll be handling a class na) pero im
not yet sure If i'll accept it. I'm happy to be
just helping and assisting the teacher with
the kids. I hope and pray that i can be more
involved sa christian church. I know in God's
time I will be..

New Developments

Last Saturday, I was able to attend my
orientation with E-World Staffing
Services. They have a great new
program that they are offering for
teachers maski wala ka pa talagang
experience.The most important
thing that I have to pass is the
American Teachers Board Exams
sa February. Best of all puro related
sa subject matter ang test no other
subjects kasi kung English ang ituturo
ko puro English subjects lang aaralin
ko kasi yun lang lalabas sa test.
May review classes din sila for
those taking the exam.
Para di bumagsak ang examinees nila
Sayang ang PhP 31,000 kung
babagsak lang di ba?

Tinanong ako kung saan ko gusto sabi
ko it doesn't matter kung saan ako
ma-assign. Pero if ako masusunod
gusto ko sa Florida or Utah. Florida
kasi Joshwa would really enjoy
Disney World, Epcot, NASA and
Etc. Saka he would like the
weather in Florida.Lamigin si Joshwa
di sya mag eenjoy sa cold weather.
Pero kung ako naman mag enjoy
ako sa UTAH kasi dun ang roots
ng scrapbooking sa United States.
Katulad ng Provo Craft dun sya
based sa UTAH. Hanggan sa pag
apply scrapbooking pa rin ang main
factor. (Hahaha)

I hope I can pass it eto na lang ticket
namin ni Joshwa makaalis dito.
If anyone knows of a better way please
suggest na and I would consider it.

If and when I pull this off dito na
magsisimula magbago ang buhay
namin ng anak ko.

Please include us in your prayers

Hon

Hon left a message at my tagboard.
Nagulat ako kasi di sya usually
ganyan his message really made my day.

I love you too Hon..We'll be together soon.