Spotting

May spotting ako kaninang umaga.
I was literally speechless.. magkahalong kaba at
takot talaga naramdaman ko. I kept telling myself
Oh God! Lord please help me.. I called the midwife
and thank goodness she called back to tell me
not to panic observe the spotting and REST which means
no layas na talaga. Dapat punta na talaga ako sa
hospital tonight but she told me to observe and
wait kung masakit at unbearable and heavy
bleeding then I should go pero hindi just stay put.
I really, really wanted to see my friends
tomorrow although I told them na malabo na ako
makapunta talagang kinukulit ko talaga si Philbert
na ihatid ako maski sandali lang ako. But now
talagang grounded muna ako. Thankfully wala nang
spotting but still I'm on house arrest pa rin.

Joshwa's own version of Manila.

Joshwa typed this in notepad
i just pasted it here. May mga lyrics na mali
pero i never bothered to correct it..


maraming beses na kitang nilayasan
inwanan at iba ang pinmntalan
parang banaang mahinap talagang malimutan
ikaw lanang ang aking laging binaballkan
manila
manila
i keep coming back to manila
simpply no place like manila
manila i'm coming home
i walked the streets of san francisco
i've tried the rides in disneyland
dated a million geris in sydney
somehow i feel like i don't belong
hinanamanap-hanap kita manila
ang ingay mong kay sarap sa tanga
mga jeepney mong nagiiiiparan
mga babae mong naggagandahan
take me back in your arms manila
and promise me you never let go
promise me you'll never let go
manila manila
i keep coming back to manila
simply no place like manila
manila i'm coming home
hinahanap-hanap kita manila
ang ingay mong kay sarap sa tanga
mga jeepneey mong nagiiiiparan
take me back in your arms manila
and promise me you never let go
promise me you'll never let go
promise me'll never let go
manila manila
miss you like hell manila
no place in the world like manila
i'm coming home to stay

Sa wakas medyo di na ako masungit kay Philbert.
May mga bagay na papalagpasin mo na lang kasi
kung hindi sisimulan pa nang away namin. Pag may
di ako gusto sinasabi ko na lang sa kanya nang
direcho para wala na lang kaming problema.

Mayroon na naman akong unexpected blessings
na dumating.Scrapbook stuff for me and shoes para kay Joshwa
galing sa tito and tita ko na nakatira sa Chicago.Kakatuwa
excited na ako makita yung padala nila.Kailan ko kaya makukuha?
Sometimes wish ko kapitbahay ko lang mga kapatid ko para
puede ko na lang ipakuha kay Philbert. Pero hintay muna ako
kaunting tiis na lang.

Di ko pa nasabi kay Philbert kasi kaka order ko lang ng
gamit pang scrapbook sa joann.com. Sa totoo lang mas type
ko mamili online store or kay Sahrie kaysa sa
scrapbook store. Nainis kasi ako nung one time
by some miracle dinala ako ni Philbert
sa isang scrapbook store di mabait yung mga nagbebenta
di sila helpful. Tapos sa kakaunti lang pinamili ko inabot ng $62
buti na lang yung $22 dun ay para sa hipag ko.

Kailan ko pa ata nang isa pang scrapbook trolley.
Dapat ata lalo akong bumait kay Philbert.

Gaano kaya ako magiging mabait sa kanya
na papayag ako na kung boy ang baby namin
magiging Philbert Jr? Oh Lord!!! Sana talaga
girl itong magiging baby namin. Dati eto yung
gusto kong names

Elementary:

BOY: Sam Darby.. Dont ask me why basta type ako
GIRL: Michelline

HIGHSCHOOL:
BOY: Michael
GIRL:

College:
BOY: Xavier Antonio
GIRL: Sofia, Riela

After College:
BOY: Joshwa, Shane, Jason, Jakob. Harry James Potter (cheesy i know)
GIRL: Elisabeth, Tyrese, Sofia Alessandra,

Wala akong originality sa names. I wish I could
do what my parents did when I picked out the names
of my sisters. I like my sisters names very original.

Eto naman inaabangan ko..

Mood Swings

I don't know whats happening to me.Pero lately I'm very, very moody..
I get upset so easily especially with Philbert. I feel like a freaking
bi-polar.. Extremely happy then one then extremely
upset and I will let him know that I'm upset. Di lang
ito kay Philbert sometimes minsan maski sa mga kausap ko
sa phone di naman sa mga boss ko pero dun sa mga iba. Basta
madali ako ma-irita. I'm not usually like this and I don't want
to be like this. For some reason di ko talaga mapigilan.
Breathe In and Breathe Out. I will really try to keep this
under control. Kaya lang baka naman kakatago ko nang
pagka inis ko atakihin na lang ako.. Decisions! Decisions!

Nausea is something that is new to me.
When I was pregnant with Joshwa I didn't have
bouts of nausea. But lately I've been puking and
puking.. (sorry for the term) But I don't mind
that it's harder now. When I was pregnant with Joshwa
I was in my early 20's now I'm in my early 30's kaya siguro
parang mas mahirap sya.

Here are some interesting FAQ's from babycenter.com

If I don't have morning sickness, does that mean I'm more
likely to have a miscarriage?

Not necessarily.
It's true that a number of studies have shown that
women who have miscarriages are less likely to
have had nausea. (If your baby or your placenta
were not developing properly, you'd have lower
levels of pregnancy hormones in your system,
so it follows that you'd have little or no nausea.)
But there are plenty of women with perfectly
normal pregnancies who manage to escape
nausea during their first trimester. Count yourself
lucky and don't obsess about it if you're not suffering!

Are some pregnant women more likely than others to feel nauseated?You're more likely to have nausea or vomiting during your pregnancy if any of the following apply:

• You're pregnant with twins or higher multiples. This may be from the higher levels of hCG, estrogen, or other hormones in your system. You're also more likely to have a more severe case than average. On the other hand, it's not a definite thing — some women carrying twins have little or no nausea.
• You had nausea and vomiting in a previous pregnancy.
• You have a history of nausea or vomiting as a side effect of taking birth control pills. This is probably related to your body's response to estrogen.
• You have a history of motion sickness.
• You have a genetic predisposition to nausea during pregnancy. If your mother or sisters had severe morning sickness, there's a higher chance you will, too.
• You have a history of migraine headaches.
• You're carrying a girl. One study found that women with severe nausea and vomiting were 50 percent more likely to be carrying a girl.

The Lord has given us another blessing.
We finally have a laptop and whats the
best thing about that is we didn't have to
pay for it. . God is good all the time!!!

I wasn't going to announce it till i was 3 months into
the pregnancy pero naisip ko maybe I should announce
it na lang din so that the ones who visit my blog
can say a short prayer for our baby.

A Day in Manila

Joshwa's current favorite song.

Wordless Tuesday

James Morrison 'You Give Me Something'

Very nice song..

My day isn't going as well as it should..
Joshwa's counsellor will be having a home visit today.
This home visit is stressing me out
that I can't think straight. We have to make a
good impression kasi kung hindi I don't know
what will happen. Although nakapasok na si
Joshwa sa program kailangan pa rin maganda
ang impression nya sa amin which really
makes this house visit really important to us.

Pati yung part time job ko affected na.
Nahihiya talaga ako sa boss ko na palpak ako..
Aminado ako kasalanan ko talaga. Sabihan ko
ba naman yung client nang "Im sorry I dont
know" (Bawal yun eh never say I dont know)
Di ko na naisip isagot yung standard answer.

Di ko naman masabi na sorry kaya di ako
nagiisip ng maayos at lutang ang utak ko
kasi stressed ako may home visit si Joshwa.
Syempre pakiaalam naman nya kung may iba
akong issues di ba. Personal na yun at di ko na
dapat idamay ang trabaho ko.Di na ako nagtangkang
magpaliwanag kasi bottomline is kasalanan ko
talaga.

I know im supposed to focus on the job at hand.
Naiinis ako sa sarili ko that I can't think straight
when I'm under pressure. (which again is not
an excuse for my mistakes) Then I end up looking
stupid. Syempre pati rin boss ko napahiya. I know
kinuha nila ako para makatulong ayoko naman
isipin nila na di naman ako nakatulong dagdag
lang ako sa sakit ng ulo nila. I'm really doing
the best that I can.

A GIFT

Thanks to Diane for this beautiful gift!!