Grabe na talaga ang panahon
ngayon. I went out to eat
yesterday at sa halagang
PhP 120 eto na lang nabili ko.
Di na katulad dati dami ka
nang mabibili sa PhP100

I WANT to see Andrea again

I REMEMBER our last family vacation
http://community.webshots.com/album/550940725KoRNmy

I FOUND out that I give myself was little credit..

I HEAR Joshwa excitedly talking

I REGRET not fighting for Andrea but at that time it was out of my hands.

I PRAY that Joshwa & I will be given a US Visa.

I ALWAYS make it a point to call Joshwa's teachers and ask about his
improvements

I WIN whenever I fight with Philbert kasi maski na he says no. I can make him
say yes eventually.

I LOSE track of time when I scrapbook

I NEED to fix everything that I need to do before I leave

I PLAY with my papers and tools whenever I scrapbook.

I LOOK forward to seeing my husband and sisters really soon.

Adopted?

Recently nagtataka ako bakit nagtatanong mga tao
kung adopted si Joshwa.

Syempre hindi.. anak ko talaga sya di ako defensive
naiirita lang. Bakit ganun they just look at me and
say to themselves you can't be the mom as if
I dont deserve to be his mom.

Kasi why do they have to keep asking
kung adopted si Joshwa di ba namin deserve
magkaron ng guapong anak?

Di ko na lang pinansin pero the last straw was
nung may nagtanong narinig ni Joshwa. Kaya pala
lately parang di nya ako sinusunod.

Then yaya mentioned it to me last Sunday na
people have been asking her kung adopted
si Joshwa nang andun si Joshwa sa harap
nila "thinking" na di sila naiintindihan ni Joshwa.

So I sat down with Joshwa to tell him that
he's not adopted and that Daddy and I love him so much.
Naiyak si Joshwa and I felt him lean against him
parang in his own way he was hugging me.

I felt really bad and i just kept telling him that
I love him.

Sa wakas natapos na ako sa Professional Regulatory
Commission. Hayy grabe nakakapagod 2 days na wala
akong ginawa kungdi magtatakbo from one place to
another. Walang sistema dun as in walang nakalagay
kung ano dapat mo gawin. Bahala ka na dumiskarte.
Tapos ang mga staff dun ang susungit sa dami nang
staff dun mga limang staff lang yung nakilala ko
dun na mabait at willing tumulong. Yung iba ang
yayabang akala mo kung sino.

Masaya ako na natapos ko na sya siguro leksyon
na din sa akin ito na kung may gagawin dapat
gawin ko ng maaga.

I AM so tired.. I went to school to get my Transcript na
di ko rin nakuha kasi kailangan nila ang marriage contract ko..

I HAVE to go back to school again tomorrow and have
to go to PRC next week..

I WISH that Joshwa and I could go to the US
to be with Philbert before my birthday

I HATE it that i have to do all this paperwork
for my board exam nang last minute.

I MISS Philbert so much and Andrea I think about her all
the time

I FEAR that if we don't leave soon Joshwa might
not even recognize his dad.

I LOVE Philbert and Joshwa

I AM NOT going to stop scrapbooking..

I DANCE when i'm really really drunk.

I SING when I feel like it.. Much to the disgust of
those around me (hahahhaa)

I CRY at the wrong times... which is weird I don't cry
pag galit ako or may masakit.Mas naiiyak pa ako pag
napapanuod ko na may natulungan si Oprah or when
I watched Vilma Santos's episode sa MMK that episode
really touched a raw nerve

I WRITE when i feel like it..

I SHOULD be calling Joshwa's school to re-schedule
the Parent Teacher Meeting that's suppose to be on Monday

LIFE SIMPLE PLEASURES

Sometimes it's really nice to appreciate the finer things in life

1. Talking to my husband on the phone

2. Playing with Joshwa.

3. Eating Ice Cream with Joshwa.

4. Scrapbooking

5. Going to Mass

6. Our Annual Family Vacation

7. Watching TV

8. Talking to my sisters on the phone

9. Going to the mall with Marisa

10. Eating Out with my parents

Scrapbook Event

I was able to go to the Scrappin Mania event
organized by the Scrappin Moms. The event
was a huge success.. Scrap heaven sya there
were 9 sellers and they all had a field day
kasing daming tao dumating and daming
bumili. May mga seminars and lectures
sila. Madami ring sumali sa scrap challenge.
Sumali din ako and I will be posting my
work soon. It was my first time to use
a hinge on my work and okay pala sya gamitin.
Although di ako nanalo okay lang naman
din kasi some of the winners ka e-group ko.
It was fun to be able to join and see
my scrapbook friends after a loonnnng hiatus.

6 Weird Facts About Me.,

1. I love Ice Cream for me there's always a good excuse
to eat ice cream.

2.I love taking photos. But I'm no tready to invest
in a very expensive camera. I think being a scrapbooker has helped
to develop my eye for detail

3. I don't like confrontations. Early on I have learned to
let things go rather than fight about it.

4. I always read the obituary.

5. I always read the marriage banns posted
outside the church.

6. I'm a fan of Mark Ruffalo which is really
weird because aside from Marisa no one I know is a
fan of his.

Nang Dahil Sa Yakult.

Nilagnat si Joshwa nung isang gabi
talagang nag panic ako kasi talagang
nilalamig sya at pumayag sya mag kumot.
Di ko sya pinapasok sa eskuelahan nung
Huwebes. Pagdating ng Huwebes ng Hapon
tumawag ang nag aalaga sa kanya at
sinabi nyang nagsuka si Joshwa. Sabi ko
obserbahan nya si Joshwa kung susuka
uli. Pagkatapos nung limang minuto tumawag
uli. Nagsuka na naman daw si Joshwa tumawag
ako kay Papa at nag text kay Mama para sabihin
na kailangan dalhin si Joshwa sa ospital.

Maputla si Joshwa nung nakita ko.Dinala
namin agad sa Emergency Room. Pero wala
naman silang makitang sakit nya. Kaya niresetahan
kami ng gamot at pinauwi.

Pagkalabas namin at nasa taxi na kami
inusisa kong mabuti kung ano ba talaga
ang nakain ang sagot sa akin kaunti lang daw
ang nakain ni Joshwa biscuit lamang at kaninang
umaga pagkagising 3 yakult ang ininom.

Kakagigil talaga sya sa katigasan ng ulo nya
muntik na mapahamak ang anak ko.
Kaya ipinaalala ko talaga na kaya nga sabi ko
isang beses lang sa isang araw ang yakult
at di puede ng gutom. Pasalamat na lang din ako
at walang nangyari sa kanya. Kaya pala nung
tinatanong sya ng doctor di makasagot ng maayos.

Day 7 Time to Go Home

Day 6 At The Reunion

Day 3,4,5 SWIMMING

Day 2 At the Farm

Dipolog Vacation Day 1

AT THE AIRPORT

INSIDE THE AIRPLANE

Bukas na ang alis namin di pa rin ako fully
prepared parang feeling ko may kulang pa
sa binili ko or dapat ko gawin.At the same
time excited ako for Joshwa kasi 1st time
nya sumakay ng airplane.

Sorry i'm going to start ranting again
Nainis ako sa isang "tita" ko hilig makialam
sa buhay ng may buhay.I've had enough
of the unsolicited advices and the bitching.
I just want to tell her na lang na leave me
alone. It usually comes in three's so
nakakadalawa na sya isa na lang. Di lang nya
alam madami ring naiinis sa anya kasi
mayabang sya. Lagi kong naiisip
yung sinasabi sa bible he who has no
sin cast the first stone. Tuwing naiinis ako
sa kanya kung may connection yan di ko
alam basta yan lang naiisip ko.

Tampo

Nagtatampo ako ng kaunti kay Hon kasi tumawag ako
busy sya. Lately lagi na lang syang busy. Miss ko na
sya pero lagi syang walang time para kausapin ako.
Lagi ko na lang sinasabi sa sarili ko intindihin na lang
sya kasi talaga namang busy sya talagang iniintindi
ko sya kaya minsan iniisip ko di mo ba kayang
iwanan yang ginagawa mo para kausapin ako
maski 3 minutes lang.

Wala lang nagtatampo lang ako kasi gusto ko lang
naman sya makausap kahit sandali lang.
Pero maski ganito nararamdaman ko di ko na rin
naman sinabi sa kanya sinarili ko na lang.
Miss na miss ko na kasi sya until then andito
lang naman ako maghihintay na lang uli
ng tamang tyempo baka sa susunod di na sya
busy pag tumawag ako.

Kumon

Joshwa has been doing so great ever since
he started doing Kumon last November.

Well according to their website The essence of the
Kumon Method is the curriculum of distinct
skill levels broken down into smaller blocks.
The materials span the entire spectrum from
preschool right through to university level.
Preschool and early primary students flourish
with progress through the levels in small,
manageable increments.

Now Joshwa is now learning how to talk.
He can now read and can now focus on the
task at hand he can even do puzzles.

What's good about Kumon also is that its
repetitive so Joshwa can really understand it.
I'm just so happy about his development.

Its like he is starting to unravel right before
my very eyes and I'm in no means saying
that he's cured or anything but I really
feel strongly about the development that he is
showing.

Malapit na ang vacation namin. Medyo kabado pa rin
ako kasi wala pa yung provision na pinagdadasal ko.
Pero kung di sya dumating baka di para sa amin.

At the same time excited ako kasi 1st time ni Joshwa
sumakay ng airplane. Iniisip ko kung dapat ko sya
painumin ng bonamine or something that would
calm him down during the flight.

Di pala alam ng mga kamag-anak ko na special
child si Joshwa. Di ko alam kung paano ko sasabihin.
Do i have to explain? Tell them upfront? Tell them
when they ask me? Kasi di naman lahat alam. Pero
di ko rin yan tinago sa kanila.

Pero aside from the concerns above medyo
excited rin ako to be with Joshwa in Dipolog.
Dami ko na ngang iniisip na itinerary kung saan
ko puede dalhin si Joshwa kung saan kami
pupunta, kung saan kami kakain at mga puede
naming gawin. Scrapbook moments na naman.

Nagsisimula na magsalita si Joshwa. Kakatuwa
talagang sobrang na-appreciate ko yung effort nya
(sa mga PBB fans familiar ang line na yan kanino
kaya galing yan?)

My name is (clear ito) Oshwa Papapapas instead
of Joshwa Pagaspas. Kakatuwa marinig kasi he
really says it with pride.

His diagnosis is from Autism to
PDD(Pervasive Developmental Disorder)

Pervasive developmental disorder-
not otherwisespecified (PDD-NOS) is the current
“general” diagnosis for many disorders on the
Autism Spectrum, including autism, Asperger’s Syndrome,
Rhett’s Syndrome and childhood disintegrative
disorder. Sometimes, a physician will use the term
PDD-NOS when there are recognizable “autistic-like”
characteristics being displayed in an individual, but
the testing is inconclusive or incomplete to meet the
criteria for a more specific diagnosis. In addition,
some physicians will use the term PDD-NOS
because of attitudes/stigma attached to the word “autism.”

Malapit na ang vacation namin. I'm leaving next
Sunday (April 9) One thing I'm dreading to hear
is "tambok naman ka kaayo" (ang taba mo sobra
in sobra) or nganong nadako man ka( why did
you become that big?) Im praying that I may
have the patience to smile through all of that
or whatever. I love going to Dipolog but
sometimes I dread those questions.