Tapos na..

Sa wakas natapos na rin ang semester na ito.
Masasabi ko lang ay Thank You LORD!

Lately,laging sinasabi ng Mama ko plan your life
as if dito ka lang muna. So that's what I'm doing.
Nag enroll ako for the Licensure Examination
for Teachers review this summer. Then enroll
naman uli next semester para maging SPED
teacher ako. Tapos mag board exam ako sa August.
Hopefully makapasa ako para kahit saan ako
makarating puede ako mag turo.

Inis

Paano ka makikisama sa isang tao na inis na inis ka.
Tuwing makikita mo sya at alam mong inis ka pa
di ka mapakali. Hay God Help me kasi ganyan ang
feeling ko ngayon inis na inis ako sa katulong ng mama
ko.

All i want is an apology from her but I won't
demand it. Maski ano pa sabihin nya about me
si God ang kakampi ko at sya ang bahala sa akin.

At the moment, maingat na ako pag andyan sya
di ako mapakali. Di ko sya kinakausap about
what happened kasi I don't want to hear
whatever she has to say.Di na rin naman nya
mababago kung ano man nagawa nya.

Mawawala din itong inis ko siguro in a few weeks
okay na uli ang lahat.

Joshwa

Minsan talaga di ko maiwasan pag may nakikita akong
kids na ka age ni Joshwa or sometimes mas bata
naiisip ko talaga all the things that he could, should
and would have been doing if he didn't have what he
has. As quickly as I have thought about it I'm also
quick to dismiss it kasi I love Joshwa and I couldn't
and wouldn't trade him for anything in this world.

I'm sure in time he will be able to do things that kids like his
age could do and that for me would be a great moment.

I did learn that the best things in life are truly
worth waiting for and that's what Joshwa brings
out in me the patience in waiting that one day
he will be so much better than what is expected
of him

I've been tagged by Mickee..Parang di na ata updated sagot ko
kasi 5 years old na si Joshwa




How did you feel during those first few days after the birth?
==> I had a C-section so it was hard at first. But after a few
days I was up and about and was able to fix Joshwa's baptism.
He was baptized when he was 9 Days old.

How were you emotionally?
==>It was terrible. I was the poster girl for PPD i tell you and
my husband had to bear the brunt of it .

Is there anything you wish people had told you
about the postpartum period?
==> That people shouldn't joke about this things
because its not a joke to go through this
and I salute those women who come forward to
seek medical help.

How long do you plan to breastfeed?
==> Initially I wanted to breastfeed as long as
I could but at the time there was no support system for me.
Wala pang breastfeeding counsellor na puede mag house
call para turuan ka kung paano mag latch.

Do you have any advice for getting through those first weeks of breastfeeding?
==> Support is very important find a friend or get your husband to rally behind you to encourage you
when you feel like giving up

Was there any stress between you and your husband over the baby?
==> None because Philbert is the best dad. At times he may not be
a great husband but he is the best dad he would wake up in the
middle of the night and prepare milk for Joshwa and the works and
he would give Joshwa a bath. He would gladly babysit Joshwa when
the need arises.

Let's talk about your body, Did things get totally rearranged?
==> Hahahaha

Care to share how much you weighed before and how much now?
==> Hahahhaha....

What advice-or comfort-can you offer other new moms about
their weight ?
==> These too shall pass

How important is it for you to have a work identity?
==> Well for me if I had a choice I would really want to just work from the
home and focus on Joshwa .

Was your baby a lot of fun right from the start?
==> no he was crying and waking up at 3 am not fun at all

What's your baby like now?
==> He's a big boy and he brings us so much joy

Holy Week Plans

Akala ko wala kaming plans this holy week.
I was prepared to just stay at home and scrap
all day.Sinabihan ako ni Mama nag mag pa book
ng airline kasi uuwi kami ng Dipolog. We will be there
for 6 days. I'm excited because it's Joshwa's 1st
airplane ride. Something to scrap about at syempre dahil
mag vacation kami nag order na akong papers to go with
the photos..Nakisabay ako sa isang friend na nag order
din. I hope na maenjoy ni Joshwa ang Dipolog.
Sign ba ito baka ibig sabihin next trip namin ni Joshwa
international na..

Colds

Naku ngayon pa ako nagkaron ng colds nahawa ako kay
Joshwa. Ngayon magaling na sya ako naman ang napuruhan.
Masakit ang sinus ko pati ang ulo ko I've been drinking
Hornex and Biogesic pero ayaw mag work. Naiinis ako kasi
di talaga maganda ang timing malapit na finals sa school
daming nasimulan wala pang natatapos. I guess my body is
telling me to slow down and let me heal for a bit before
I try to do anything else.

March SOL

· Philbert is my bestfriend
· Cinderella is my favorite Disney princess.
· Corny jokes make me laugh.
· I don’t know how to wear make-up
· Kinder Bueno is my favorite ever chocolate bar
· I already have a name for my next child Harry James Potter or Gandhia Michelin
· I call on St. Anthony whenever I lose something
· I really want to live in a house with a big lawn and a swimming pool
· I am 5 feet and two inches tall.
· I am not good at haggling.
· I look forward to the scrapbooking gatherings every month
· I can spend the whole day just surfing the internet.
· I can’t dance.
· Know-it-alls irritate me.
· I can’t leave home without my cell phone.
· I can’t resist cake or any other sweets for that matter
· I could never stare into a person’s eyes.
· I don’t know how to ride a bike.
· I don’t know how to swim in deep waters.
· I don’t know how to use rollerblades or a skate board.

Materials Used:

DCWV paper
Chatterbox Tag
Chatterbox Vellum
Rob and Bob Paper
Provo Craft Paper
Craft Express Stickers
Paper Pizzaz
Heart Brads
Basic Grey

February SOL

Eto yung journalling ko:

The date today is February 28,2006
Inside, I feel like I’m 24 years old .
I’m okay but I’m feeling really blue I miss Philbert so
much. I thought things would get better but I’m still not
used to the feeling that Philbert’s not here.
I was named after someone my mom had a bestfriend
named Tito/Tita Ariel and so my mom spelled
his name backwards thus the name Leira.
My nicknames are Lei, Leirs, Lira, & Leir
Aside from Philbert my bestfriend at the moment is Marisa.
My favorite dessert is ice cream and
my favorite flavor is Rocky Road.
My favorite weekend activity is spending time with
Joshwa and eating ice cream with him.
The least favorite thing about myself Is that
I’m fat and I don’t know how to lose all the weight.
My most recent achievement is getting good grades in school.
What I’m worried is not being to be able to see Philbert again
I think I would just die if that happened to me.

Materials Used:

DCWV papers
Basic Grey Tag
Paper Pizzaz
Ribbons
Provo Craft Paper

Slice of Life

One of our projects within the group that could
somehow motivate us to do a least one Lay Out
a month is the Slice of Life. I'm posting my Slice
of Life Layouts(SOL) here. I'm going to start with my
January SOL na February ko na ginawa

A Slife of My Life

This LO was supposed to be January pero
Feb 13 ko na sya nagawa. Eto yung journalling
na ginamit ko.

The date today is February 13,2006.
My mother’s maiden name is Rescina taken
from my Lolo’s name REStituto and my Lola’s
name luCINA. At the moment I’m wearing a
Polo shirt dark blue and a pair of denim jeans.
The last person I talked to on the phone was my
cousin LALI .A goal I’m working on right now is
trying to fix our papers so that we can apply for
our visa that is also something that I am saving for.
What I thought I would be doing right now is being
a Stay at Home Wife and Mother. Philbert, Joshwa
and Andrea are the people that I really think about
a lot. Philbert is really the person that I miss the most.
My birthday is on October 19.If I see a shooting star
the only wish that I have in my heart that Joshwa and
I will be able to leave the Philippines before 2006 ends.

Materials Used:
Ribbons
Acetate
DCWV paper
Chatterbox Paper
Rob & Bob Paper
Basic Grey Paper
Porcelain Flowers
Staple Wires

Jeremiah 29:11

This verse really stands out for me kasi
feeling ko talaga God is assuring me
na sya bahala sa akin.

11 For I know the plans I have for you,"
declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and
not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

God Will Make A Way

Malapit na kami mag apply ng Visa
medyo uneasy ang feeling ko pero
talagang this song really gave me
comfort it's as if God is speaking to
me through this song. Please include
us in your prayers na sana matuloy
ang travel plans namin this year ni
Joshwa para makasama na namin
ni Philbert.


God Will Make A Way
Don Moen

God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength
For each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way
By a roadway in the wilderness
He'll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His Word will still remain
He will do something new today

Joshwa's Latest Photo

Movie Reviews

Last week a friend & I went to see a movie
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.. To say the
say the least it was unrealistic and insensitive.

Last Saturday nanood naman kami ng CLOSE TO YOU.
This movie was great as in it was realistic, gave all
the right kilig moments basta it was nice.. A lot better

Yesterday my friend treated me to a movie
Brokeback Mountain. This was a sad movie
pero they were living in a different time so parang
much as they wanted to be together they weren't as
lucky. I truly wouldn't want to be in the shoes of
Michelle Williams naawa ako sa kanya dun sa movie.

I truly believe that it deserves all the awards and
the great reviews.

Ive been tagged by Lit Coo


4 Jobs I've Had In My Life-

• Customer Service Associate
• Office Employee
• Wife
• Mother

4 Movies I Could Watch Over And Over

• Sound of Music
• The Notebook
• The Truth About Cats and Dogs
  
• Happy Potter Series
  

4 Places I've Lived

• Makati
• Pasig

4 TV Shows I Love To Watch

• Wheel of Fortune
• Entertainment Tonight
• The Insider
• Jeopardy

4 Places I've Been On Vacation (the last four)

• Singapore
• Malaysia
• Indonesia
• United States

4 Websites I Visit Daily

• Yahoo
• Chinabank
• Gmail
• Yahoo Groups

4 of my favorite foods:

• Oysters
• Cakes
• Pork barbecue
• Ice cream

4 Places I'd Rather Be Right Now

• California
• New York
• Amanpulo
• Malapascua
  

Bloggers I Am Tagging

• Mickee
• Cher
• Grishan
• Mia

I finally have a new phone.
Naglakas loob na rin ako bumili.
Kuripot kasi ako tagal ko na
convince sarili ko na kailangan ko ng bago.
I bought a Nokia 6230i.
It's cute and sleek and fits my
lifestyle. Best of all tri-band sya
so meaning even if we move I
can bring my phone with me
and I can actually use it.

Baguio

Last Friday January 13 was Joshwa's 1st time
to go to Baguio and he had a lot fun.
This is my favorite photo nung trip namin

Happy Birthday Joshwa

Last January 16 we celebrated
Joshwa's 5th Birthday.
It was a simple celebration I just ordered
food from my Lola's restaurant and we had
a school party. The best part was that Joshwa
blew out his birthday candle. I waited so long
to see that and truth to be told I was
very emotional. I really wish that his dad was there.
I hope sa next birthday we will be able
to go to the United States to celebrate his dad.

Happy Birthday Philbert

Today is Philbert's birthday..
So to my love I say Happy Birthday we may
not be together now but we will be together
soon. You would always be 25 to me..
Since 25 ka forever does that mean
I'm forever 21 since you are 4 years older?

Here's a poem that I found by E.E. Cummings.

I LOVE YOU MUCH(MOST BEAUTIFUL DARLING)

More than anyone on the earth and I like you
better than everything in the sky -sunlight
and singing welcome your coming.

Although winter may be everywhere,
With such a silence and such a darkness
No one can quite begin to guess (except my life)
the true time of year- And if what calls itself a world
should have.

The luck to hear such singing or glimpse such
Sunlight as will leap higher than high
Through gayer than gayest someone's heart
at your nearness.
Everyone certainly would(myMost beautiful darling)
believe in nothing but love

Joshwa and I celebrated Christmas together
but it was weird because It felt sad and cold.
Joshwa opened all of the gifts his and mine.
He had fun opening the gifts he had fun
with the wrapping paper and forgot about
the gifts all together. Here I was watching
him and taking a video and I was happy
to see him in a good mood and smiling for
the camera.

I spent Christmas with my Lola and some tito's,
tita's and cousins but still something was
missing. While I was eating and partaking
of the feast that is called Noce Buena.
Silently I was praying to God please I never
want to go through this kind of Christmas again.
I know that I should count my blessings etc and etc.

I wanted to get into christmas "spirit"
but still It felt weird that I couldn't.
I cant help it I miss my family .so what is family
anyway right? Joshwa is family but what I meant
was parents, my sisters,my nephew and most especially
my husband.


It was so sad and I felt pathetic
but I cant help it. But it's okay I know
that everything happens for a reason.
God will reveal it in time.. Not my time
but in his perfect time.

So for all of you who felt happy and
jolly and all sorts of happy emotions
this holiday season I say good for you.

For some of you that felt like I did
well then I feel for you and I sincerely
know what you're going through.