Thursday, September 30, 2004

My New Blog

I love my blog's new look. I couldn't have done it without this sweet friend of mine.Thanks so much for my dear friend Jeanny for helping me out. You are my fairy blog-mother.
I can't thank you enough. God Bless.

Wednesday, September 29, 2004

ANDIE

Andrea or Andie as I call her is my new daughter she's 4 years old.. I'm still trying to figure out kung ano ang second name nya. Gusto nga din palitan yung Andrea kaya lang sanay na sya dun. She's a truly blessing to us coz I remember trying to get pregnant na pero di na ako mabuntis according to the doctor I have secondary inferitility tapos nasabayan pa ng remark ng remark ng MIL ko na kaya ka di mabuntis kasi nabalutan na ng taba ang ovaries mo.
I was so depressed. So I prayed to God..I really want a daughter. Lo and behold this friend calls me up and asks me gusto ko daw ba si Andrea. Akala ko nagbibiro sabi ko sure sabi nya dadalhin daw nya sa house and she wasn't joking the next day dala na nya sa house ko ang dala nya lang is yung damit na suot nya and one extra dress and one underwear. So taranta talaga ako mag shopping ng underwear and clothes for her. Then pinasok ko sya sa school sa katabi ng bahay namin. As for the mom di na sya bumalik sa house ko, Now when she wants to talk to her daughter she just texts me to call her. Im now trying to find a lawyer to help me with the adoption process. Hopefully magka ayos na kami nitong lawyer na kausap ko.
We are not rich.. Therapy pa nga lang ni Joshwa mabigat na. But I've always believed that God will always provide kung will nya na Andie is for us then Im sure he'll help us na pagkasyahin kung ano ang andyan. We love her so much we could never imagine what our life would be without her.
Mayroon din nagsabi na baka mahati ang pagmamahal namin kay Joshwa and Andie.I don't think so. Velvet my friend once told me that a mother love is so great that it can be divided into so many parts and yet pantay pa rin. Ive really realized na totoo talaga yan. Based din sa kuento ng mga iba ko bang friends.

I've always believed that adoption is one of the highest forms of unconditional love although not everyone is meant to adopt kasi di lahat kaya magmahal ng di nya kadugo. I learned this lesson from the Hubby ni CG and Mother Gem.
I know that the threat is always there na bumalik yung nanay na bawiin yung anak nya. For me okay lang yun basta alam ko talagang aalagaan na nya and mabibigyan na nya magandang kinabukasan. I will not say na di sya masakit. It will be very painful i hope that never happens but if it does then maybe she wasn't meant for us.

Thursday, September 16, 2004

Visa

Today is just one of those happy days.. Finally nakakuha na rin kami ng visa. After 3 days of cramming it finally paid of. Ganun pala talaga yun.
Di mo talaga alam kung hinanahanap sa yo at kung ano itatanong sa inyo..
Eto ang kuento ko. ..
Dumating kami ng 1:30PM. Dapat earlier pa kasi 2 PM ang appointment kaso naman umulan malakas bumaha pa. Pagdating namin dun pumunta kami sa Pavillion sa Window 1 tapos tinignan yung photo dun sa visa application. Phil and Brox's photo were rejected kasi pangit pala sa digi photo masyadong maliwanag. But just the same binigyan na kaming lahat ng number. After 10 minutes bumalik na sila pina barcode na yung application form tapos punta na kami sa window B tapos tinignan ang application form para malaman na okay na sya. Pumunta na kami sa waiting area
that was the longest 1 1/2 hours of my life.
Tagal maghintay pero kakaaliw yung mga tao. Mayroon dun bank manager sya daming dala and yet na deny sya. Kinabahan ako dun..Kami sya nga nadeny madaming papeles paano kaya kami. Then mayroon group of kids sa likod namin 8 kids to be exact sibblings pala sila. Kasama parents nila. Nabigyan sila ng visa. Imagine 10 sila kasi pati parents ata nila kumuha. Wish na lang ako sana dun kami mapunta. Just my luck dun kami napunta. In fairness.. Cute sya.
Here are some of the questions na tinanong sa amin baka sakaling nag hahanda na din kayo pumunta sa US baka makatulong sa inyo.Eto ang dialogue namin:
Consul: Whats the purpose of your visit?
Me: To attend the wedding of my sister.
Consul: Where might that be?Me: In Los Angeles
Consul: (turns to Philbert and asks) what is your line of work?
Phil: Im in Information Technology, (then proceeds to discuss his line of work technical na sya so di ko naintindihan)
Consul: Do you have plans to work there?
Phil: No, because i know that IT's are already being outsourced from other countries.
Consul: Yeah that's true IT's in the US go to other countries to get work.
Consul: What about you? where are you working?
Me: Im working for our family business
Consul: Which side?
Me: My dad owns the company
Consul: What kind of business are you in?
Me: I discussed kung ano line of work and biz namin
Consul: (to Phil) What does your brother do in the US?
Phil: I'm not really familiar with his line of work there.All I know is that he is an accountant
Consul: What does your sister do in the US?
Me: She's working for a home care agency as Payroll Assistant.
Consul: (to Phi)l: Will it be hard for you to get a vacation from your boss?
Phil: Not really because December is really a slow month.
Consul: How long are you planning to stay?Me: 30 days max
Consul: Want to show me anything.. Ngek di ko alam kung ano ipapakita ko sa dami. If there was such a thing as being over prepared we were it. Name it we have it. Pictures, properties, car registrations and etc. Pero naman di sa amin yun sa tatay ko.
Me: Here's the wedding invitation and the letter of support from my dad and cert from the bank. Because he'll be financing the trip.
Consul: Do you have Joshwa's birth certificate? How old is he?Me: He is 3 years old and I hand him the birth certificate.
Consul: Okay then everything's great.( He hands us the yellow paper)Go to the pavillion then pay for the courier's fee to have your visa delivered. We usually give single entry visa's since you're a first timer.
That was it.. I couldn't even believe it till we paid for the courier's fee.. Ganun katagal bago nagsink in. Di ko alam kung suerte lang at nakakuha kami. Palagay ko will of the Lord ito.. We literally stormed the heaven's with prayers. My mom asked all her priest friends to pray for us. Ako naman I kept going to http://adorationsisters.org/requests.html to make a prayer request and I asked the my tita's cell group to also pray for us. It worked, it really worked.. Im just so happy.. .

Friday, September 10, 2004

What A Day!!!

Today was a day like no other. . It was one of the worse mommy days. It's the day where I had to rush to the emergency room to bring my son in for treatment.

Eto ang sequence of events:


It was 8:45 AM Joshwa's yaya just called me..

Bing: Hello , Ate Leirs nasugat si Joshwa.
Leirs: Bakit ano nangyari?
Bing: Ate kasi si Joshwa umakyat sa kuarto tapos nung tinatawag
ko biglang sinarado pinto.
Leirs: O tapos ano nangyari
Bing: Tapos pagsara nya naipit daliri nya ayaw tumigil ng dugo.
Natanggal ata kuko nya.
Leirs: Mag ready na kayo.. Uwi na ako punta na tayo ng Makati Med ngayon na.

I was shaking I could barely walk to the jeepney stop. As soon as I saw his wounded pinky finger dun na talaga sya nag sink in.

Pagdating namin sa emergency room they immediately ushered us inside. I was trying to compose myself pero talagang I was panicking na. . The doctors only had one verdict Joshwa had to be confined. Kasi they wanted to remove the nail. Imagine that it shattered like a broken glass pero nakakabit pa rin sa finger nya. They wanted to remove it baka maging source of infection.

So there I was praying silently na sana wag na sya ma-confine.Eventhough may insurance si Joshwa semi-private lang ang coverage namin. Pero in my heart I know that I have to trust in the will of the Lord. Nahihiya ako sa anak ko na ni wala man lang akong pambayad kung ma hospital sya para upgrade yung room nya.. I know mababaw pero as a mom gusto ko sana the very best para sa anak ko.


Pero still inayos ko pa rin lahat.. Then pagbalik ko sa ER para sunduin ko na si Joshwa dumating na yung orthopedic surgeon nya. Then Lo and Behold he told me na di na kailangan magpaconfine si Joshwa.Apparently, In special kids mahirap daw i-sedate kasi daw di ma predict ang effect. Yung iba daw matagal magising yung iba naman nag wear off agad.

Kaya ayun nilagay ng glue yung kuko nya na naiwan. Para pag tumubo na yung kuko nya itutulak na nya yung patay na kuko palabas. Para di nya magalaw ang ang sugat may bandage ang buong right hand nya.

Masaya lang ako na okay na si Joshwa. Yun lang naman talaga importante di ba?


Tuesday, September 07, 2004

Da Vinci Code

I just finished reading the The Da Vinci Code and from someone who doesnt really read suspense books.. Here's my review:

It's good, damn good. The Da Vinci Code has all the right ingredients to create a massive market share of the fiction . The characters are believable, the fictional premise intriguing, and it made a really good analogy about the catholic church and the search for the Holy Grail.

You all deserve a quick plot summary. Know that there can't be one here -- the book is a thriller and details will destroy it for you. I just had to delete the next 250 or more words I'd written, because I realized it would destroy the suspense in the book. I'd defined the Holy Grail in terms of Celtic, Moor (pick your pagan) traditions. Then I wrote about the myths surrounding the Knights Templar, the persecution of Jews, the relationship between Jesus and his love, Mary Magdalene, and more. What I can tell you without ruining the book, is that this book takes myth and reality and combines it in just the right way. He appears to be right on target with his many of his conclusions, and while the book is "fiction", one can't help but believe much of it. Brown doesn't insist you believe him, in fact, he's almost apologetic about how strange and unusual his conclusions may sound. In a subtle way, he warns the reader that everyone is allowed their own belief system and whatever gives someone spiritual comfort should be respected. But Using Will and Ariel Durant's The History of Civilization, Francis and Joseph Gies' Women in the Middle Ages, and Barbara Walker's The Women's Encyclopedia of Myths and Secrets to confirm Brown's facts, I learned that when he puts two and two together, it's amazing what he comes up with.

This book will have what is probably an unintentional effect. The Da Vinci Code counteracts other best sellers. Brown presents an intellectual and fact-based suspense thriller that will hopefully start a trend toward debunking the misquoted myths and errant Biblical interpretations .One can't help but wonder when the fanatics of the religious right will rise up in defense of the End Times series and call for a boycott of The Da Vinci Code.

As for me it doesnt anymore what other people think of the book. It answered a lot of questions.
I love it.. I love it.. I love it
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Monday, September 06, 2004

ASAP

MUST DO

I have and want to:
1) lose, lose, lose...a lot of weight!
2) start playing badminton
3) pay the bills.. and find a way to get the money to pay for my bills
4) be a better me..

Sunday, September 05, 2004

Married Life Realizations

Yesterday as we were patching things up and I was asking Hon if he had anything else to say.He told me what's the use di ka naman sumusunod sa akin. At first I was in denial then denial changed to defensiveness.I don’t like it that I have to give up control. Minsan nga inaasar ko pa yung kaibigan ko pag sinasabi nya sa akin na sumusunod sya pag may sinasabi asawa nya. I’m like whaaatt!!! I just got married but I didn't plan to surrender my life to anyone else.

Then kanina I was talking to my friend she was complaining about her SIL. Tigas daw ng ulo ayaw sumunod sa asawa baka daw di nya mahal kasi kung mahal mo papasakop ka. Then we started to discuss submissiveness. Then It hit me.. That's a trait I dont have.


Naisip ko tuloy marami sana kaming problems na naiwasan namin kung sumunod lang ako. I realized that I did surrender my life to him the day I said I do.

I also realized that a happy marriage is more than the "I Do" on the wedding day. It is hard work and can be a lengthy process. Believe me, no successful marriage is arranged in heaven. God made men and women capable of making marriage work!!! This does not come effortless.

Many of us enter marriage with impossible dreams and unrealistic expectations.
No one could tell us about the flaws in our choice of a spouse. We were in love and our love would surmount all obstacles.

Two months into the marriage and reality will start to set in. You start to discover a lot of things both good and bad. The in-laws that you thought you love will make your marriage MORE complicated.

Courtship and marriage may begin with romantic love, but for a long-lasting relationship, romantic love must be complemented by maturity, trust and respect. Special personal qualities are crucial for a happy relationship: commitment, sensitivity, generosity, consideration, loyalty, responsibility, trustworthiness.

Romance and mutual attraction are important for a happy marriage, and should not be overlooked. But you cannot live on love, no matter how romantic that sounds.
Romantic love is not enough when you and your spouse lack what it takes to sustain a relationship as intimate and as spiritual as marriage.

According to M. Scott Peck’s book the Road Less Traveled, Love is not a feeling it’s a commitment. When you tell someone that I love you. You tell that person that I commit myself to you. That’s why I’m sad that people seem to take that word lightly.

Couples need to cooperate, compromise, and follow through with joint decisions. They have to be resilient, accepting, and forgiving. They need to be tolerant of each other's flaws, mistakes and peculiarity

Marriage is a reflection of our relationship with God. We submit to our husbands, they submit to Christ and Christ submits to the Father. If we have no respect for our husband’s authority, then we have no respect for God’s authority. Sometimes God doesn’t do things the way we think they ought to be done, same as our husbands, huh. Sometimes we have to hang on because the ride gets bumpy. But, somehow we always have a sense that God’s having everything in control is OK while our husbands don’t have the foggiest notion and we have to usurp their authority with our own. Look out if they don’t do it our way.

We can submit to our husbands by letting them pick the restaurant or discipline the children the way they see fit. When our husband makes a decision, we can support it and stand up for it. If we give the role as the spiritual head of household to our husband, we might be surprised to find out that he takes control of this very well. Maybe it’s our way that isn’t working that good. After all, the sixties have been over for a while, but there are still a lot of ways this world belongs to men. Maybe, it takes a man to deal with it.


Here are some of the scriptures that I found that is related to submissiveness.

1Corintians 11:3

Now I want you to realize that the head of every man is Christ, and the head of the woman is man, and the head of Christ is God.

Ephesians 6:7
Serve wholeheartedly, as if you were serving the Lord, not men.

Ephesians 5:21
Submit to one another out of reverence for Christ.

Saturday, September 04, 2004

CANADA...NOT!

Sorry for not updating this blog.. We actually went through a Marital Crisis last week. There were so many issues that came up that caught me off guard. Then we talked about most off the things that happened in the last couple of days. But as we were resolving things. He dropped a bombshell on me that I didn't expect. He then told me that he really didn't want to migrate at all. He loves his job and here and can't see himself starting again.I told him not to say NO right away kasi matagal pa naman kami ma-approve so it might take us a few years before we can leave.But in the end someone had to give in and it was me. Haaayyyy!! I hope I can change his mind.. Say in 10 years.